is revived by reading and watching things that are just plain pathetic.

I decided to pick up something that I knew would be badly written and read it. BY ALL MEANS I READ IT. I didn't care if it was boring. I didn't care if it's not me talking. I didn't care if the protagonist was made of cardboard *she'd never survive in the rain anyway*. I didn't care if I wasted 18 bucks on it. I just wanted to see if i had the same reaction to it as I did before.

No, I'm not talking about Twilight, though there are several parallels. I haven't seen the movie yet. I'll get to eventually. I know it'll be a vile sitting it I go to a theater. I'll wait to see if anything on youtube pops up. I honestly don't care too much for the crazy!fandom. They're annoying and they shouldn't give teenage girls an even worse reputation than they already have. Like totally *hand "pshyaaa~" wave. We already have the strive for unontainable perfection and a whole bunch a problems that we have to deal with and REP is not one of them. We'll deal with that when these girls have some respect for themselves.

What's up with books these days?! IS THERE NOTHING GOOD TO READ?! I see all these classics. Less than half end up being decent. And if they're decent, it's not by a mile. I can comprehend most *if not all* of these hidden messages, motifs, morals, etc, but in the end, I don't care much for the book. It's telling me things that I already know. It's great that there were people who thought of this just like me. But really. I can read through some trashy teen novel faster than I can read these. And I like these about the same. Not much. Neither of them do it for me.
People always claim that they're "SO GREAT. OMG THIS IS LIKE AIR". That's nice. It ticks me off that the reason why people think these books are great isn't that they're great. They're good, but not great. It's that so many people have said that they're awesome, people are expected to say that they're great or else they're branded as giant asses because they can't appreciate the "master piece" that is *insert classical author here*. What a load of frack! PEOPLE ARE ENTITLED TO THEIR OPINIONS. Sure, some of them might be STUPID opinions, but HELLO?! FIRST AMMENMENT *that is the first, right?!*

I reallize that everything I say WILL have someone who disagrees and takes it the wrong way and starts thinking I'm this horrible person who knows nothing. Well. Too bad. If your opinions were as great as you think they are, they wouldn't be affected by some outer influence. And honestly, if I debate this out with someone it's most likely we'd walk away questioning ourselves and that's something I hate. Plus nothing would really come out of it anyway. This is the same reason why I hate politics. Who cares what you say?! It's what you do that matters. Words are words. If something like that can cause pain, then TO HELL WITH ALL OF IT! WE'RE ALL WUSSES BECAUSE WE CAN'T HANDLE SOME WORDS. WHY DON'T WE ALL JUST TRY TO BE MIMES?!

I took a quiz and felt like updating this thing! Behold!
I hate the concept of time management. When you consciously know that you want to manage time you start thinking about how you want to save time more and more until you end up wasting it over thinking about it. And that, is sad. I finished personal notebook the other day. Took me a while to start a new one for various reasons that I'm not exactly sure of.

Thanksgiving is coming around the corner. My family doesn't really celebrate these seasonal holidays or anything. We buy pumkin pie, and eat some meat and relax when everyone else is doing they know what. I'm just glad that I have time to procrastinate without consequences. It feels like I'm desparate for time I'll never use these days. I just want time to lay there and not do anything in particular. Obviously, this isn't healthy. It's sedantry. This emotion *or lack of* I think is meant to cover up negative stuff.

You Are a Knight

You are very unusual and even a bit eccentric. No one can really figure you out easily. Because you're not predictable, people behave irrationally around you. They may feel threatened by your presence, or they may underestimate you completely. You do best when you're close to the action. You don't move quickly, so you need to be near the center of things if you want to make a difference. You tend to act quickly, and decisively. In fact, you are often the first person to make a move.

Jung Explorer Test
Actualized type: INTJ
(who you are)

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.

Preferred type: INTJ
(who you prefer to be)

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.

Attraction type: INTJ

(who you are attracted to)

INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.

Take Jung Explorer Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

You Are English

You are easy to understand, and most people are able to communicate easily with you. You say things simply and clearly. You are flexible and not too hung up on rules or customs. You can go with the flow and change as needed. You can speak simply or you can exercise your vast vocabulary. You customize you communication style to whatever setting you're in. You are a very cosmopolitan and worldly person. If you like something from halfway around the world, you try to figure out a way to incorporate it into your life.

What Language Are You?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

You Are a Fifty Dollar Bill

You're a bit rare these days, though people are aware of your existence. You are pretty powerful. You might not have what it takes to roll with the common twenties or the hoity-toity hundreds, but you have your own little niche going on. You like the finer things in life, but you also know how to keep your spending in check. You are the master of discount luxury. You like to pamper yourself, but you never go overboard. Some may consider you a big spender, but you know bigger spenders!

What Dollar Bill Are You?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

Current [Ness]: amused

Hallo all!
I finally have a valid reason for everything. Why I haven't been posting for long intervals of time *I sound like the author of Jane Eyre! interval spam!*
They're everywhere........and i just realized that my " I hate coins" rant had a lot of typos in them. I used "your" twice in a row when I was supposed to use "you're"! The life transcending shame....... I'm supposed to be doing homework. Oh well. It's not like it's something that I don't know how to do. High school papers are so restricting. Screw MLA format. Why do we need topic sentences for every paragraph?! Surely our SMART audiences can figure out what that damn cluster of 3-5 sentences are about. That's just insulting our readers. I don't need a topic sentence in story writting......
'Tis fine for research papers and etc. I just find a lot things useless in school writting. It limits me *not arrogant* and then when they give me a chance to do what I want, I can't do anything well because I've been held back for a long time.

I think it's about time that I actually try out what I can do on livejournal instead of ignoring the fancy html people can do.

( Some epiphanies in just ranting about searching for a solution when clearly the solution is right in my own fracking journal. Lokidammit all...... )
And again, I have it BACK. I'm BACCCCCCKKKK from the other side of the wall 'cause I found a crack. Then i found my sledgehammer and broke the wall and therefore I have surmounted my first challenge of the school year. Now to get rid of those annoying upperclassmen...well they're old, their backs will give out eventually.

I came across this journal tag that said "I hate coins-bills only"

And I've prepared a skit:
F: I hate coins!!!!!!~!!!@$#%@$^%&#U^*@$@ They're like people, always loose and prone to change. They're always trying to prove their worth and trying to make believe that their worth is different though they're all the same!
L: But you have a coin collection.
F: That's so all my little coins can be safe so they won't cause any trouble.... *averts gaze mock-dazingly*
L: That's your way of being sadistic, isn't it?
F: *continues to avert gaze mock-dazingly* More than you can imagine.....

Then I read my rant about the poser (also a coin. and even if you have worth, you're a hunk of metal given worth for reasons that in no way help save the human race) saying that I left for what she is and she *insert verb here* for what I did. My actions don't reflect anything but my views factored by the situation. Or at least the ones I think about do. And it's the same thing here. The enraged subject was commented on by me, who saw her for what she was. And thus the subject had acted upon this action with another action due to the action itself. Not for a personal reason, though in the shadows there may be one. Character is the tree, and the shadow is what the world thinks of the tree. But still, the tree is the real thing. Hold on....let me quote Abe on this...

"Character is like a tree and reputation like its shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing."-Abe

Can you see the forrest for this tree? Or do you see the forrest for the forrest?

-Alice the Anomalous

Superchic[k] is just wicked awesome. It never gets old. I think it's about time for me to update my icon list.......
AND of course it was HALLOWEEN yesterday! Hapy Birthday to Yagami Kazuki and Mossy! I drew pictures for the occasion this time.
*will link when she has the pics posted on DA*

Current [Ness]: accomplished

Are my mood thingys invalid? Lokidammit, took me such a long time to type in names for each of them.
Took me awhile, took me a very long while, but i DID FINISH that book. I don't keep track of what i post on this thing anymore so I'm no sure if this is a repeat.
*clicks save to check on Gilbo!Moodtheme*
YUS, my moodthemes are back on. *revived her photobucket account* Something is going right today.......
Some loser!bastard in my group in my history class was a no show and he was in charge of bringing our project and now it has been deemed late. I gave him half of the participation points, i was being nice *for once*. I should have given him a zero. Mercy on that kid. I was screaming out "loser" in the hall way because florida will freeze over if I let something as insignificant as "popularity" *actually it's only the words of other people in their social group that define their "popularity" and "status". It's really not anyone else that isn't associated with them that gives them "status". As far as I'm concerned, I'm the mot popular girl at school because I lack empathy and interest in the pointless lives of everyone else.*
The other girl in my group constantly called me "mean" *what a useless four letter word* for critisizing the character of him. But really, what character? I don't make it a hobby of mine to obsess over other people burning their calories. I'd rather have my own calories be burned because then I won't die from a sedantry lifestyle! Yoho, yoho, a sedantry life for me.
My vocab words for the day:
I used to record the words I learned from the my daily life in my physical journal but I don't even have enough time to uncap a fracking pen and take time out of my day to write down a few words. Typing these out is easier and faster *lazy*

Sedantry

I don't even have a chance to use the words I know because half the time I'm either pushing my ways through hordes of metaphorical sheep who can't take an ounce of contradiction for their "precious" little lives or else they'll snap and make animal noises at me. Well I always did think animals should run free, but maybe I'll have to rethink that statement. These animals should be put in solitary confinement! Away, vile peasants, Tophgod's glory cannot be sullied by your prescence!
*can't remember how old she is*
Hehehehe, on the 6th of this month was my birthday. Again, I can't remember if I've mentioned that yet on my LJ since I don't keep track of didly anymore. I've never desired summer to this extent before.

HOLY SNOT, it's almost been a month since I've updated. My dear LJ, I have longed for you much. This must be the shortest entry labeled "rant" I've ever posted. While I was checking to see if my moodthemes were full, I googled "prussia moodthemes" to fill in the missing images I might have had. MY JOURNAL'S ON GOOGLE, MAN.


Alas, quizes from the Things of Blog.

You Are Blue

You believe the key to living a good life is simple. Be as honest with yourself and others as possible. You value the truth over everything else. You will remain loyal to those who are honest with you, even if their honesty hurts. Compared to most people, you handle the truth well. You take every event in stride. You are the calm spot in a sea of chaos. You think the solution to most problems is open communication. You wish that people would be more real with each other.

What Color of the Rainbow Are You?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

You Are Dumplings

You are cute, polite, and considerate. You are well known for your generosity, and you truly love to share. You have a real style and presence about you. You know how to take the simplest thing and make it look chic. You tend to order carefully and conservatively off the menu of life. Simplicity is your motto, and you don't like to take on too much at once. You are the type of person who does one thing at a time, really immersing yourself in the moment. You detest multitasking.

What Kind of Chinese Food Are You?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

You Are the "Z" Block

You are somewhat high maintenance and picky. You don't mesh with the outside world easily, but when you've found your place, it's usually a perfect fit. You have strong beliefs, and it annoys you when other people don't agree with you. You are pretty demanding of people around you. Compromise is not something you think about. You know you may be hard to handle. People may love you or hate you, but you're not about to change.

What Tetris Block Are You?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework.......................

Tags: angst, clique walking, editor-sama, insert frack here, quiz, random, rant, sanity, school, stalkers, story

To Stalk me go here: In the country where Laughter isn't the language of the soul

Current [Ness]: complacent

Current Form of Entertainment: 500 Miles-Alexander Rybak

Hallo all!
*has anyone noticed that I just went past my 100th post mark? TOPHGOD PWNS*
What's up with songs these days? Nothing to sing about other than "love" that was all about your body and bad influences with pointless attitudes, is there? How boring. Instead of that hetare junk *unless if you like that kind of stuff* shouldn't there be more people writting songs about how their life is going no where but they won't let this feeling contaminate themselves? I would love to see this happen. Hell, I'm willing to start a revolution myself, but looking to my classmates for an example, my ideas aren't listened to. SCREW THAT. My mind doesn't revolve around purely burning calories and i think King Henry the 8th divorcing his wives is somewhat comical. Divorced, beheaded, and died. Divorced, beheaded, survived! That's how the fracking song goes! Now plagerize from it because it's better than any jingle you can come up with! Fine, don't listen to me because you see've seen my every day for the past 500 school days but have never seen me for me. *coughhackbastards* An eye for an eye makes the whole world blindER. There's really no reason NOT to go ahead and say "Hey you" or "Yo" to me? Like the people I hang around actually influence me in any way.... What kind of logic is THIS?! What has the world come to?! I shouldn't be talking about logic because geometry proofs aren't mathematical at all. I don't want to reason. I want to RANT and ANGST.
Do I gaze at any stalkers reading this?! YOU MAY RANT AND ANGST. But don't talk to me like I have no idea what I'm talking about. We'll compare abilities on the battle field, not in an area of peace and tranquility. Where are we again? If you thought Martin Luther talked smack, you ain't seen anything from me yet......
I recently have obtained about 5 friends *I'm not even keeping track. This number is OFF in the course of less than 3 weeks....this is so foreign to me....Friends?! Talking?! THIS CONCEPT IS DIFFICULT TO COMPREHEND! What's up with that?!?! People don't TALK to me, OML. I hooked one of them onto Hetalia! Forget christianity, let's be Hetalian! PASTAAAAAAA. That's the only thing you have follow. FOLLOR THE SOURCE OF THE ORANGE PASTAAAAAAAAAA.
*looks around* I can't believe I actually have the time to write this, but I DO. There was a rapid diminishing of my homework supply. Damn, what will I use to cut down the rainforests now?!?!? How conflicting. I refuse to repeat the word "issue" and its plural ever again until my Junior year at least. I'm sick of the word.
Weird Al's real name is EPIC. His first name is Alfred and his middle name is Matthew. AmericaxCanada ftw?! I just realized that one of my stories is well over 2 years old. That was about when I first read Twilight and got inspired by it. I know that of course, it's not a perfect book and it never will be in my standards, but I can't but like some of the quirks in it. The indecisive girl in it? Not so much. Come on, give me some credit. I hate the driving force behind the series: the romanticism of Bella Swan. It's life, hon, don't expect it to accommodate to your every will. You're supposed to do that yourself. It's a self serve kind of world. Think of an Old Country Buffet. Clam chowder or chicken noodle soup?
The New Moon trailer actually makes me want to see the movie. The blue tint disappeared so it doesn't look completely sickening. The shirtless "hot" "guys" might be repulsive though. The pack's wolf transformations are obviously digital, but well made. I said this all before when I was talking to Ri on her blogspot *doesn't know what it's called so she substitutes the name with blogspot because it's the closest thing she can thing of at this moment* I still hate the casting choices for the main characters. Rob Patterson doesn't appeal to me as an Edwards. He should stick to being Cedric: dead. His hair did improve in the trailer though. *is merely recalling the commentary she wrote on Ri's entry*
There is one thing I don't understand about high school....why with the high standards NOW?! I was ready for high standards years ago, but you depleated by ability to do all those things because I was held back all those years in school *not literally I'm in the grade I should be in, but they held me back from doing a lot of EPIC things* I have so many things to talk about but not enough time to say so. Plus I pretty much forgot most of the important things I was going to say. Now they're using words longer than 4 syllables. Extensive vocabulary ftw but why NOW. At least give me some warning.
A serious lack of an official Greenland was ticking me off because I desparately wanted a Greenland paper craft that I could pile on top of my Iceland so they can have papercraft!sex and all that jazz. A couple of days ago I decided to design my own based a picture of Greenland I found on pixiv. Don't worry, he's still blonde, following the theme of all the nordics.
The DA link for anyone who wants to print it out:

Greenland Papercraft Design by ~SapphireSakura on deviantART

*Click it. NAO*

My mass updating is not over yet! I bring MOAR angst and rant!!!!
At school I decided to join a club *shivers from the sheer mention of ....PEOPLE, OML*. Anime club to be specific Why am I suddenly overusing "suddenly", "what's with", and "a"s to begin my sentence with? I officially ban myself from using those words.....for now. This guy "Recruited" me *even though I did most of the work and joined his fracking club on my own*
And so after todays meeting *takes place each tuesday at lunch in the art room* I decided to stay in the art room since my next class was there. The idea went swimmingly in my head. So I just sat there and drew after I finished eating. Apparently SOMEONE has a problem with me not saying anything. And SOMEONE had the guts *I thought I pulled those out already...hmmm, I'll make sure......* to call me SHY. He also called my friend, Ashley "fumble". Fumble seems to mean clumsy and dumb. At leas that's what my dictionary said. Ashley is perfectly coordinated not matter what you say. I don't trust his judgement in character. He should stick to saying interesting things and playing video games instead of judging people. Leave those kinds of things in my glorious hands. You can't get everything about a person just by looking at them. Look at me, I'm clearly of the female gender but I think LIKE A MAN. Wait, that sounds sexist. How come men sounds smart and sensible while women are supposed to be silly and ploncy all over the place so they can be easily swayed into getting raped? Dammit, in this day and age the females are all teachers, what NOW?! It's not a matter of me being manry or not. It's the glorification of myself, duh!
Today voting for homecoming took place. I originally wasn't going to vote and leave my ballot blank, but I thought I'd have some fun with the school system. Voting was annonymous and the school is surely too lazy to analyze my handwritting to find out who created social distortion in their perfect little school. I voted for myself naturally, along with two of my friends who "aren't" "dance material". Who says waht's dance material and who isn;t? If you say you are, then you are. No debating over it. No one has the authority to judge you other than yourself. No reason let the fall of your ego consume you. NO. YOU LET MY ANGSTY CHARACTER ORION DO THAT.
*Sadistic authoress knows how work. DROWN YOUR MISERIES IN ANGST!*

On a semi-realted note: I find the concept of anime conventions kind of boring besides buying yaoi and keychains you can show off. Any thoughts/commentaries/flames that make you look like an ass?

Blogthings is gushing out new quizes.....and they're actually interesting! I shit you not! They're BACCCCCCCHHHH.
Tis the Reformation of Blogthings! Put that in your history books.

Your Name is Gray

Your name tells people that you are calm and level headed. Your name makes you seem honest and fair. You are able to look at things clearly and without emotion. You tend to remain neutral in most disputes. People see you as reliable and trustworthy. You treat everyone equally, and you don't tend to have any prejudices. You are naturally calculating and even a bit cunning. You don't like to show your cards too early in the game.

You Are Sophisticated and Well Mannered

You're the type of person who can sit all day entertaining guests with witty banter. You believe in presenting yourself in the best light possible. You like to be seen as classy. You give a first impression of being upper class and even a bit snooty. And you're the first to admit you're a little guilty of that. You are an armchair critic. You can detect quality easily, and you want the best things you can find.

You Are North

Like a Viking, you are assertive, decisive, and dominant. You seek power and destroy those in your way. People admire that you are so confident and independent. You seem to have the world figured out. Sometimes you come across as pushy and aggressive... not that you mind! You like being seen as tough. You make a fairly good leader, especially in times that require grit and ruthlessness. You are a warrior.

You Are West

Like an American, you are an innovative, free-spirit. You tend to do your own thing, especially if no one has done it before. People admire that you are creative and a visionary. You come up with all sorts of ideas, and you're never afraid of failure. Sometimes you come across as wild to the point of being careless. You are a rule-breaker who borders on dangerous. You make a great artist. No matter what you do in life, it's your personal expression of who you are.

You Are South

Like an islander, you are friendly, easy-going and welcoming. You are always looking for good times and new friends. People admire that you are so caring and hospitable. The world would be a much better place if more folks were like you. Sometimes you come across as a little too complacent. You tend to avoid conflict at any cost, even if it makes you uncomfortable in the process. You make an ideal diplomat. You know how to put people at ease and how to promote peace.

You Are East

Like many Asian cultures, you tend to be reserved and conservative. You don't believe that your internal emotional life is anyone's business. People admire that you are together and responsible. You're the type of person who seems to be living a good life. Sometimes you come across as a bit cold and humorless. You only show the easygoing side of yourself to people you know well. You make a good judge of ethical issues. You see right and wrong easily, without letting emotion color your opinion.

You Are Balanced and Thoughtful

You view people with suspicion. There is a lot of interpersonal conflict in your life. You had more conflict with your mother than your father. Your relationship with her was healthy but challenging. You don't deal with stress well. Even moderately stressful events tend to send you in a tailspin. You require a lot of calm in your life. When things get too hectic, you need to step back and reassess things.

Your Non-Existent Part Says You're Confident and Spontaneous

You are a very carefree and relaxed person. You don't put in effort when you don't have to. You tend to be interested in nature and a bit of an environmentalist. You try to live a green life. You are a casual person. You don't do well in formal settings... in fact, you avoid them. You try to let the small things slide. Even if that means you don't always comb your hair.

You Are Silver

You are down to earth and unpretentious. You don't feel like you need to show off, and you're very secure with your place in the world. You are understated and elegant. You carry yourself with poise, and you're more known for what you don't do than what you do. You can fit in anywhere from a country western bar to a black tie gala. You are adaptable and adventurous. You are blind to social class and background. You see people as who they are ... not as where they came from or how much money they have.

You Are North America

You are bold, assertive, and a real go getter. You don't mind taking charge of a situation... in fact, you prefer to lead. You believe that you deserve respect. You get annoyed when people point out your mistakes. You are more complicated than you seem, and you have many facets to your personality. You change quickly, and you're often misunderstood. To say you're power hungry is missing the point. You're also open to change, innovative, and successful.

You Are An INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. In love, you are an easy person to fall for. But you're not an easy person to stay in love with. Although you are quite flexible, you often come off as aloof or argumentative. At work, you are both a logical and creative thinker. You are great at solving problems. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. How you see yourself: Creative, fair, and tough-minded When other people don't get you, they see you as: arrogant, cold, and robotic

Current [Ness]: Desparate for Pokémon Times

Yo, my beloved stalkers....wait, "beloved"?! No, wrong word there. WHERE'S MY SOURCE?! THE SOURCE!!!!!!!#@$%^&
I went to the movies last Saturday and saw 9 with a few friends. Friends?! What "friends"?! Of course I have friends *the majority of them being online*. I just have high standards for whom I desire to hang out with in bodily form. The lights in the theater where ORANGE. ORANGE. I have nothing else to say besides I know whom I can trust and whom I can't now. Crap is not an acceptable response when talking to me. So please, cut it.
I finally get my borrowed manga returned to me by one of my friends, who had to venture all the way the house of the person I lent them to for retrieval. Thus, another trust was lost and another gained.
School life is still damned. IT shouldn't even be allowed to be refered to ask "life". It's life sucking! The life sucks and is being sucked! I have the urge to press save for every single sentence on my computer since it's a mac. English class is holding me back because my subject is boring. Originally, I was going to write on how to beat pokémon in less than 24 hours, but apparently, that would take many pressings of A to continue on. Look at me! I can't even write a paragraph in my own fracking journal, lokidammit! I have obtained MOAR stalkers! For the worse! One wanted me to be his pet but admited that it was only a joke and the other eternally at war with me. *I'm winning* Of course the correct to way to write it is to type: Me vs. That thing. Everytime I attempt to listen to the running stream of dribble that gushes at a rate of utter miserable failure per sentence, obviously i'd lose interest and go back to my coloring. The pencils are definitely NOT doing all the work. It takes talent to make anything like this look good. My design for the art project's a wing. Let me hope that the teachers don't pay attention to the lack of pattern and pay attention to the ice cream themes throughout my pieces of paper covered with wax and ink.
School: let it burn in the deepest depths of a small intestine. Especially the treatment of the 9th graders by the older children. Last time I checked, I was neither "fresh" nor a man. At times I wish I were but I have a feeling I'd be even shorter. Sure, the majority of the kids that make up my grade have cheap factory made plastic for brains, but I know students are supposed to learn at school. What I hope for them to learn is that you don't mess with ME and hope to survive the whole year based on age. May the be plagued with wrinkles and dateless nights because that's pretty much all they care about.
People have snapped at me because they didnt feel like putting a way a bin. Full of their work. Eh, I know that I agreed to the classroom rules of repsecting you, but don't tell me what to do. You'll do a lot better in life if you realize this, no? There was another time where I overheard some 10th graders *refuses to say "sophmore". tis a mouthful* talking about the 9th graders (me included) all liking yaoi. What are these dudes, homophobes?! Sure, call it "gay" because it is and it diminishes the manliness you never had. FICTIONAL 2D CHARACTERS have more manliness than they do. If you cannot appreiciate ART and yaoi, you are AMISH. You shouldn't be able to respond to this because you're AMISH, you own no computer.
In the Pokémon games there's this character that I find hopelessly attractive. Is that wrong?! *sneezes again due to allergy to stupid* I love Steven's character design! Too bad he likes collecting rocks in solitude. I ship him with both May and Brendan because it's hot, straight or not. HGSS is coming out! I want it to be spring already.....better yet, it must come out NOW.
You may have been thinking....."Alice, you lazy bum, you haven't written didly, have you?" WRONG, DENIED. I HAVE written something good lately. I've been IMing with my pokébuddy lately and I've been writting some Greenland/Iceland ficlets to her on the spot. They're not the most descriptive because my writting class seems to be holding me back from doing whatever the hell I want *cencorship!* I shall compile them and let my editor-sama read them with pleasure. I should go alert her right now!
The whole damn world is sexist. I only listen to good music, that's natural of me. I read on one of my DA watches about how music is pointless when all the women sing about is breaking up with a guy and getting back at him by getting other guys to check her out. That's sounds more like mating than dating. Who in the world mixes up their Ms with Ds?! How come when guys are playboys, they get called a "beast" but when girls are whores, they're looked down on? Shouldn't we look down on all of that equally, you sexist bastards?! I should be doing my homework, but I refuse to until my RANT is done, dammit! And YAOI. When girls read pron, it's not alright, but when men read it, the deed is treated as only slightly disgraceful?!
I will never come to understand how you can be sexist. Without the other sex, you wouldn't be alive.
I have homework to do now.
-Alice the Anomalous, ranter extraordinaire.

Disliking Gym Says You Are Thoughtful

You are thoughtful, philosophical, and downright cerebral. For you, gym is too intense and competitive. You aren't always in the mood for playing hard. You may or may not be into exercise - but any physical movement you do is under your own terms. You don't get your happiness through thrills or adrenalin rushes. Your bliss comes from quiet reflection.

Your Birthday is Lime

You are the envious type. You can't help it... you always want what you can't have. Your jealousy is rare in that it's actually quite healthy. Envy is what motivates you in life. You want to be the most successful, most liked, and most wealthy person you know. And even if you don't get there, you work every day at being a better person.

Current [Ness]: cold

School has officially been in session for three days. Let it all be damned. I would like for you to excuse my french, but I don't know french *working on the information gap* and I'm pretty sure I just swore in English. Sure you can confuse Chinese with Korean *completely different writting systems*, but you can't confuse French and English?! Blasphemy!
There's a striking difference!
ANGST. ANGST. ANGST. ANGST.
There has not been enough angst over this summer. And that's why I must suffer....daily exercise in the form of hiking on fracking stairs?!
There is just no justice anymore. Just a hassle, lokidammit. My school life is damned. I have once again waged immortal combat between my personal rival *psh, no contest*. This is war. First, surprisingly gain some shred of trust and TEAR IT APART. Assummed!kindness is all part of the scheme, ehehehe. The paranoia itself eats my opponent apart. The job just does itself, muahahaha.
I've realized that I don't use this thing as much as I should. My friend, Ri, uses her blog *not on LJ* a lot more than I do, it's </strike>*dammit, I've been hanging out too much with fracktards with no extensive vocabulary, thus I can't replace "extensive" with anything better, like something I WOULD SAY or use a word that means "really"* </strike> honestly very colorful.
Speaking of the variations of light that make COLOR~ I'm taking an art class. Hate all the crazy, obnoxious seniors because they don't have the ability to walk faster than my grandpa, therefore no kudos for them.
OML *flails itunes into reader's face* kuroshitsuji's OST is EPIC. BEHOLD the sheer awesome that was ever awesome in the history of........PASTAAAAAAAA~ *Prussia+Italy mode*. Actually, I think Kuroshitsuji's mood compliments me more than MLR's ever did. Overall, as a whole I'd say it's much better than Matantei Loki's because there are a lot more tracks with violin and other orchestra instruments. By the way, somehow I think that there are more positions on a string instrument than there are for sex. I realize that there are a plethora of sex positions since I've read yaoi. LOTS OF IT. You could just place your fingers anywhere *on a STRING. ATTACHED TO DA NEAREST CELLO NEAR YOU* CELLO DISCO~~
It was announced recently that there was gonna be a Corda 3 game for some PS station that I've never owned and probably never will. I only possess products of the Nintendo variety and this is ALFRED FREAKING JONES. There are no such things as this glorious thing in this fracking country! Alfred, I adore you and your Cola, but please, follow Kiku's example and distribute these things to your people! We can't read pron all day because most of that shit is disgusting anyway. If you can't live out those.....experiences, please, just lock it in your mind to spare us the disturbing mental images that are your fantasies! YAOI is good. Kink meme is glorious and better than the bible *coughhackfiction*. Hell, Fanfic.net even has good stuff. Just please, no real world pron. I don't understand why people do that.
My history teacher comes from the same town/city/place I come from. That's RIGHT, Vancouver! Now some bastard that I've had a chance to hate for well over the lifetime average said that he angsts. WHERE!?!?! I did not detect any angst on my sensors!!!! YOU are no judge of what ANGST is!!~ Besides your pout of petulance, what does she know of angst?! It's all about happy-time beer in the form true arrogance and whatever you think would make you look good. No matter what mold you're in now, any mold will erode away and die. Then what is left but to kick aside the pieces and face the lame choir music all those boring girls with high voices and tame nature sing from the sheet music *nothing wrong with that. Tis the reason why I dropped choir in 6th grade*
Here's something worth mentioning to get the last HAHA: Angst. Mine. Farewell. My sardonic side has tolerated enough empty "hi"s and OBVIOUS disregardings of.....oh wait....they had gentry sluts back in Jane Austen's time too......... I need to finish Prophecy of the Sisters by Michelle Zink soon before I go insane from the lack of stimulation. Lunch with my school friends is entertaining, but alas, they're not all the shiniest rocks in the asylum yard. I am. *insert reviving ego here*
Dayumn, this has gotten out of hand. Everytime I try to post an entry, I always end up sounding worse and worse because my miny is elsewhere. Tis the time to go all Prussia on this world. I once told a friend of mine, my revered Editor-sama, that only the strong survive. As of now, I'm searching through my IM files, and TIS NOT WORKING, dammit! WHERE is all my meaning ful drabble?! It used ot make a lot more sense and now I'm in a state of concern because I have a feeling that I'm screwed! I WANT to see something like Prussia barging through the doors yelling out "I'm BACK, BITCHES" and be able to compare it to my glorious victory march through the halls. If only I had the room to MARCH.
Adamantly, I've decided to write a how to paper on beating pokemon in less than/and or roughly around 24 hours. I dunno if I'm allowed to, but SCREW the rules. I can do whatever I want. It just might not be graded. It's nothing *SOMEthing* to worry about until tis too late.
Wish I could type more. Must do homework. NAO.
-Alice the Anomalous and her Iron Fist from the cleaners.

You Are Mint Iced Tea

You are philosophical and balanced. You try to remain cool and collected. You value peace and quiet. You've had a lot of drama go down.. enough to last you a lifetime. You have come to a point in your life where you can accept things as they are. You don't get worked up about what you can't change. You like nothing more than a simple summer afternoon when you don't have a care in the world.

Current [Ness]: amused

Someone on Hetalia's comm linked to this meme, so I tried it out. The only thing I love about this is that I get an A+ and Iceland is the sex ed. teacher. Prussia had something to do with it too. I'll post more stuff like this, because it's addicting!:

Hetalia School life by Toro-chan
Name
age
Favorite Country
Country you live in
Your Homeroom Teacher
Your Literacy Teacher
Your Math Teacher
Your Science Teacher
Your PE Teacher
Your Music Teacher
Art Teacher
Your Crush
SexED. Teacher
Your Counsler
Who becomes your Lover
Your Tutor
Your Grade	A+

Current [Ness]: amused

Hallo, all!
I'm too lazy to use a cut for any of this, and I don't plan on using them anytime soon, and I never have. How should I say this?...... You know the feeling of how you're on vacation and you have all these things you want to do planned, but by the time the vacation ends, you realize you never got to do any of the things you wanted to. Summer's almost over and I've done didly about it! I should be happy that I have time to spend away from the maniacs at school! I refuse to go through the hassle of high school, simply because it IS a hassle.
All these punks keep friending me on face book *the shame, I have one!!!!!* DENIED. Not only was he ignored, he was denied, rejected, and engulfed in flames of pure hatred via the internet. A friend of a friend told this specific guy to *bleep* himself and he replied with "*insert the incoherent signature sound he makes here, similar to the sound "ahh" when hesitating* Well I would, but I don't have a *insert cover word here because the real word is indecent slang*." The lesson here, my dear readers, is that he WOULD. I never took him for the sort of person *more like a zoo animal really, but aren't humans animals too? We just don't want to be regarded as animals because we're power hungry* to know what "*bleep*" meant. My friend said he probably picked it up from the kids at school. What sort of THING is influenced by CHILDREN?! Oh wait.....he's one of them, whilst being the least liked, due to my iron powered will. If TOPHGOD dont like you, you know you're screwed.
On the side, I am in serious need of icon space. *ran out* I have almost 30 MB of icons that I have no chance of using if I don't have space for them. I even ran out of room on my AIM! I keep all my usables in one folder. Mostly because I have no use for them unless I feel like replacing old icons.
Ashley and I watched Bambi yesterday......the ""hidden" "messages"" we got out of that movie........ We made the whole movie seem like a love story between Bambi and his father *incest!deer!yaoi FTW!*. As dirty as it might be, it's still not that.... Who am I kidding?! This is almost as bad as....no wait...APH kink meme is good. Move over, you second rate perverts! The first rank ones have come to conquer all! The two of us came up with something EPIC......The World's next TOP seme and the World's next Uke *because ukes never TOP*
With "The World's Next Seme", we take some ukes from all around the world *fictional world, that is* and try to make them into semes. With the Uke version of the "show", we take regular guys *straight or otherwise* and make them into ukes. At the end of each season, we take the winners of both shows and lock them up in a room and observe what they've learned.

I finished an anime called Toradora yesterday. I heard from another friend of mine that Taiga reminded her of me. I didn't see any correlation besides the violence and spite in my glare *which is kept hidden until it's needed*. I'm not THAT short either! They never told us how tall anyone was besides Ami, who's 165 cm *relatively close to my height*

Did I ever mention that I buy double copies of books?! I bought the Silver Kiss....again. They reprinted the book along with two short stories, that to me, weren't very exciting. I thought Zoë would have gotten over her sadness even though she still loved Simon. Yeah, she'll never be able to love THAT much again, but she can still love. I thought that after the end of the Silver Kiss, she'd be mature enough to back up the decisions already made. BUT NO. The girl that i thought was so much smarter than me because she chose not to be imortal ended up being a PANSY and WEAK and in a whole world of WOE is me and ANGUISH around for all! It's really odd how all the characters I respect for a few minutes end up proving themselves not worth the respect. I suppose not everyone is like me, I follow through on what I'm saying. Unless if it's actualy [real] work. Zoë, you paralytic, past dwelling idiot! Don't look back, go forward! It's not like it was all a dream and didn't happen, so don't deny it!~

Ohohohohohoho~! Prussia's song *which is all about him, for some reason* is METAL. I'm not the biggest metal fan, but it's EPIC. I thought he'd have a rock song, but tis Prussia, what do you expect from him? In my head canon, he can play flute and violin because HE CAN. Old Fritz probably taught him *head canon taking a path of its own*
I have an obsession with the song "Rebirthing" by Skillet. I was watching the newest episode of Umineko no Naku koro ni where Beatrice was saying that you cannot be human without wanting money and love. Does this mean I'm not a human? I'm just humanoid?! *falsepanic* Money is just something life thrust upon us to need. It's not like I actually need it. It's a must have if you want to do....well anything but think, breathe, and....other things. I hate money. I spit on money. I stash it in my bookshelf somewhere. Love? There can be multiple interpretations of what kind of "love" she means. I disagree in the sense of needing a lover. Many people go on with life without one because they know they can stand alone and strong. Did I just say that? Well hopefully, there ARE some people who can back me up on this with their existances. We need each other more than we know and more than any of us can ever admit.

Man, Blogthings has seriously been lacking in decent quizes lately:

Your Walk Says You're Bold

You are intelligent, thoughtful, and even philosophical. You like to go unnoticed for the most part. Other people see you as confident. You are proud of who you are, and that shows immediately. You are assertive, energetic, and curious about the world. You never hold back, and you're often the first to try something. You are a kid at heart. You love to have fun and believe that life is for living.

You Are Pasta Salad

You are very outgoing. You definitely have the gift of gab. You are positive and enthusiastic. You just go for it! You are a generous and giving person. You find it easy to share what's yours. You have the gift of intuition. You go with your gut... not your head.

Extra: Character Info *before I forget this fact*
-Isiandos's axe weighs 120 lbs.
-Findabhair/Jenny has a pair of Olynthian hand guards courtesy of Deimos's grandfather.
-Lacrymossa's gun is called the Black Widow is permanently merged with some part of him *most likely the soul, I don't wanna go into in depth details right now*
-Pandari has gold/hazel coloured eyes.
-Deimos can't jump a fence (well).
-Xavier doesn't have good stamina.
-Jenny makes more dumb blonde jokes about Deimos and Isiandos than she should. Most are in their prescence.
Example:
"I suck at archery."
"Well you are blonde after all."......*awkward silence*....."That was a joke"
"I know. I didn't know you could joke."
"You yourself are a joke."
"Hahhhh....."

Tags: angst, book, bored, ding-dong the bitch ain't dead, fandom, hetalia, quiz, random, rant, toradora, vampires, yaoi

To Stalk me go here: Alfred's Chest

Current [Ness]: Obnoxious

Current Form of Entertainment: My Silky Love-Yui Horie

It certainly has been a long time since I've posted. Livejournal says it's been 6 weeks. Who's been counting. So far all the celebrities I don't car about have died. I have to mention that when my sister ATTEMPTED to force me to listen to MJ's songs, I pulled out me BOISE Noise cancelling head phones.
That means they don't let me hear outside noise.
I have nothing personal against Michael Jackson *look, I'm capitalizing his name. He's a proper noun.* because I've never met the guy and I never will. I tend to think of the famous and rich as regular people. And as you know with regular people, I don't give a damn. That's just how it is. I was never really into his music and I won't say anything negative about it because I don't really know it. You can't force me to get into it. At least I'm not flamming him or anything. Be thankful for this. It's the best kind of kindness that isn't cheesy.

I'm not done yet. I accidentally pressed enter and I have plenty more to, that's right, RANT about.
I'm considering having a new layout for my journal. Dear readers, this sadistic writter needs input on which, if at all, journal layout I should choose. Of course, i don't like being told what to do. I just wanna see how you'll like the ones I found. In the end, regardless of any opinions/mindless comments/etc. I'm choosing the one I like the best. Maybe i should take a picture and archive all my past layouts. None of them will be made by me because Loki knows I'm too lazy to design anything by myself *on a computer at least.*
OML, mythbusters is on! *watches*
I'm still here, dammit :D
*shows off Prussia moodtheme for all who've not seen*
PRUSSIA! <3
SO AWESOME.
NORWAY IS LOVE.
UK and his caterpillers eyebrows.
There's not one hetalia character that i hate, but there are just some that I like more than others.
I'm not particularilly fong of China, mostly because I know how China can be, but for the most part, they got my love for Hello Kitty right. YES, tis true. I have a love for hello kitty. Tis nothing to be ashamed of. I am who I am. *will make a double post to rant about all of the her psychological findings*
Since the last time i posted anything that was didly, I learned how to read Korean! WHOOOOOT.
Worship my semi-mastery of reading hangul! I'm still working on how to type it, but so far I can read the name of authors and such.
I also reread Night Road, as EPIC as it is, I still can't help thinking that romance is irrational. Though it can be worth gallons of whipped creamy HOT, if you have to change for someone you love, you're not being the same person they loved in the first place, no? Love=Breeding season.
I'm not up for rational or irrational. I think what I think. Simple as that. I'm sick of people telling me what they think because honestly, I don't care unless if I have a reason to. I only care if there's something of interest to say. *like hetalia! OR anime. OR languages. OR books. Or .....what else is there? YAOI......*
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I paid TAX TWICE today. WHY IN THE WORLD would I have to do that TWICE?! FOR CANDY?!
The sales lady was racist.........
I was the only non-european american friend there. What has the world come to? Everyone is RACIST. Not because of continental race, but because we're all homo sapiens. If you hate another homo sapien, you're racist against your own race, PERIOD.
SCREW THE RULES, I HAVE MONEY!
*got that from the Nordics fan community from a comic that said Norweigans cross the border to go shopping for food in Sweden.*
That's what I would have said if this were a free world.
"SCREW THE RULES I HAVE MONEY! Now give me my candy, bitch! Blondie *nothing wrong with being blonde*, I CAN count. Asians are supposed to smart *is shot for the stereotpye*, at least get the stereotype right."
In the service industry there are many things you have to get right for me to be your valued, and semi-sardonic customer.
FIRST of all: If you must stereotype *you bastard*, get it RIGHT.
SECOND: Don't do it at all! *gets Switzerland. "How many times do you want to be shot?"*
THIRD: I'm paying, bitch. That's right, your paycheck. So SERVE ME RIGHT.
FOURTH: You just got PWNED.
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I've also been doing some research on language family trees.
Now I understand why I can't read French at all and why Spanish doesn't appeal to me. I have no experience with Romance languages at all!
I'm only good at germanic languages and mandarin. And I'll start from scratch there. Eventually I WILL learn all the languages when i rule the world. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My hetalia papercrafts are going smoothly. Except NOW I've found Kuroshitsuji characters available at my disposal.
For my editor-sama, I have written, but not completed, the long awaited hiatus closing short: The Butterknife. It's in Ezekiel POV, one of the characters I made specifically for [Myth 100], another one of my story ideas that I've never put into action until now. I suppose I should explain what [Myth 100] is about. Here goes a lot......
The main character is an enigmatic anti-hero that isn't your normal angsty protagonist that spends the whole book trying to get over whatever betrayed or hurt them. He has quite a sinister past, which he refuses to reveal, stating that it's too "'impure" and that it would sully a normal soul. He appears to be around 23 years of age but his eyes say that his soul seems to be.....recycled, to say the least without me going on about what colour they are and how it fits his personality, blah blah blah.
I might consider doing some biblical research for this because according to my friends, I have no idea who this 'Jesus' guy is. Mythos doesn't have a blind sixth sense but he still can't pay the rent for his apartment and/or office, therefore he needs to hire some help and delay their pay until he can book a job with enough money and get on without reaping his employees' income annually. Thus, he starts an inverstigation agency. He takes cases anywhere from crimes such as rapes or theft to inverstigations for the unexplainable, and maybe the occassional cat stuck in a tree if he gets free candy. Alas, it's only natural that he needs to hire help suitable for such cases.
His gaang of misfits:

The separated paternal twins~Finvarrah and Romulus.
Finvarrah is the elder by 13 minutes

.....
You know I'm gonna make a separate post for this.

Tags: "friends", [ness], angst, anti-deign syrum, blue moon, book, by me, editor-sama, epic, epic win, genius, glorious, hemovore, hetalia, i belong to me, lingo mastery, love?, music "appreciation", night road, rant, real, screw gentry sluts, screw society, writting

To Stalk me go here: *Is a Stranger on a Strange land*

Current [Ness]: amused

Current Form of Entertainment: Cantarella-Shion Kaito (Vocaloid)

Hallo brethren!
I'm sick at home *without swine flu* for the day. I wasted all of it. That's right, i stayed home, doing Loki knows what. I didn't even watch all the anime episodes i could have crammed in.
After my last joural entry, i actually feel much better than i did a week ago. School is almost over, i swear! I'm aggravated with myself because when days are just something to get through until some other day, there's really no point is there? I supposed tis time to make yet another iron fist and start another reign of Glorious Anomalies~
I'm back to making amvs too, even if it's only ten seconds.
I've been attempting to finish Jane Eyre, which is 552 fracking pages long. That's about the length of twilight, and I've read books twice as long. I have to finish it in a few days because that's the due date. Of course i could always get an extention on that because....IT'S ALLOWED. Charlotte Brontë is so far better than Jane Austen. Damn, i should be reading the book instead of doing this right now.

For a long time, I've always wanted to make a soundtrack of 10 to 12 songs that i can listen to that'll get me back to my egoistic self right away. I've decided that I've wasted enough time trying to get by without any amo or help. Thus, with the assistance of puched hetalia fsts, i narrowed the list down to 82 songs. Now I just have to pick from those and put them in an order that's good enough......
WHAT'S UP WITH THIS?! Have I lost all sense of attachment to myself?! Theses sentences are truly too simple....*can't find another word for truly* Gaaaah, that's it. PAUSE.
*skips this part of the entry*
Songs on my mind:

At age 13 *inspiration points+60*-Vidoll


I think Junjou Romantica has inspired me to go write yaoi now, as wrong as it might sounds. I do this because I WANT TO. I will aspire to be like Usagi-san! *fist up* It won't be any of that "i dont know what love really is and i shall struggle to understand what the hell is going on" kind of yaoi, please, i can do much better than that. I won't allow characters with high pitched voices, they just get annoying as ukes and characters in general.
Mossy would not be pleased.
After JR, i watched Kirepapa and Papa to kiss in the dark since my friend told me that they were half way decent. They still don't measure up to JR because in JR there are no animal sounds when there's action going on! The characters' hair weren't from a rainbow either. And plus the characters were just whatever and blank in those two OVAs. I prefer JR to a lot of things because Akihiko is adorable *coughhot/skilled/awesome* and Misaki isn't feminine at all. He's a normal boy! *pinocchio!*

I got the Last Olympian in hopes to finish it by graduation. It ain't happening. I have too many charactersthings to procrastinate work on.

EDIT: OML, i forgot to add that I've made well over 52 papercrafts in may. That counts as doing something! I have a Prussian army of five and they're all ready to invade your vital regions!
I have a British army too. We have faeries! JOIN USSSSSSSSSS. Become one with Russia!

*goes back to reading Jane Eyre*

Quiz Dump
I find no need for a cut, since this is MY journal. *doesn't know how to use cuts still*

You Are Rain

You are dark and dramatic. You tend to be a bit over the top. You have strong emotions and they can change quickly. You are tempestuous. You are wild and unpredictable. You tend to overwhelm and surprise people. While you are aggressive, you are also a homebody. You don't really care for physical activities.

Are You Rain or Snow?

You Are Bitter

You aren't bitter at the world, even though you have a strong personality. Instead, you are sophisticated and cultured. You appreciate acquired tastes. You are very powerful. You have the ability to change a room's energy. While some may find you disagreeable, your points of view are intelligent and interesting.

What Taste Are You?

You Are the Library

You are very intellectual and well read. You tend to be absorbed in your own interests. You can seem a bit standoffish. To be honest, you're not that interested in other people. You are comforted by the things you own. You tend to be a pack rat. It's likely that you have many old possessions that you treasure. You rarely throw anything away.

What Room of the House Are You?

You Are Not A Show Off

You're happy with who you are, and you don't need other people's affirmations to prove it. You don't really like excess attention, and you prefer to blend in with the crowd. You are modest and humble. You don't make a big fuss out of your accomplishments. You prefer to fly under the radar. The people who matter most will like you no matter what.

Are You a Showoff?

You Are Shampoo

You are refreshing and cheerful. You don't hold on to a lot of baggage in life. You are a true optimist. For you, every day is a fresh start. You are confident and bold. You are proud of who you are, simple as that. You are passionate about life and its possibilities. You don't hold back.

What Bathroom Product Are You?

You Are Blue

You are a philosophical and often inspired person. You are the master of ideas. You are open to many points of view. You believe that it's important to communicate and not judge. You have a worldly perspective, and you're always looking to broaden it. You are a true people person, but you also value your solitude and personal space.

What Primary Color Are You?

You Are A Spaceship

You're so weird that you're practically out of this world. You are a total dreamer. You are obsessed with conquering the impossible. You are wild and adventurous. You love thrills of all sorts. You are a true sensation seeker. You are always looking for that next high.

What Type of Transportation Are You?

You Are Highly Intelligent

You are a perceptive, observant, and reflective person. It's easy for you to get lost in your mind. You think amazing thoughts. You are curious about the world. You are inventive and quite visionary. You can get really engrossed in things. You tend toward the obsessive side.

The Watercolor Test

You Are Highly Inspiring

You believe that your life has a higher purpose, and you do all you can to achieve it. You are wise, and a lot of your wisdom comes from self discipline. You try to live as moderately and modestly as possible. You make room for rational, small indulgences... while living as ethically as you can.

The Watercolor Test

Tags: all these things i hate, angst, anguish, anime, anti-deign syrum, book, bored, courage, cynical theories, glorious, hetalia, idiocy is sickness, music "appreciation", papercrafts, quiz, rant, yaoi

To Stalk me go here: Well....In One.

Current [Ness]: listless

Current Form of Entertainment: Infinity

Greetings, brethren.
I step on this cold hard brick of a stone, but do I really desire to be on it? No, it's been tainted by a distorted mold of an original.
Do we not all gree that copy≠original, no?

Alright. You know what? I've had it up to the ozone layer in doses of POSEUR. That's right, with a "u" in it. Because not only does this moron display discontent in her actions, she displays discontent in herself which comes off as taking out her "anger" and boo boos in her constantly pointless life.
Who knows what I want?! Anybody. Come, I allow you to reply to this retorical question with anything you have. What do i want?!
Not world domination. That's for lulz and in case this hopeless universe realizes that they're eternally screwed *this is not going to happen, i assure you. If it does/'s already happened, let's party!*

I've passed the milestone where inanimate objects make the person. Shouldn't it be the person who makes the inanimate object?! There's this concept called manufacturing. I realize that it's more than two syllables, but it is required to be known by the people worthy for the editor-sama seel of approval. IF you don't....wekk maybe your parents will buy you a new brain on your next brithday. You better wish extra hard and be a good *religiously brainwashed* specimen.

When i hear that I always "get what I want", it makes me giggle. Because seriously, tis not like I haven't gotten any sort of hint. I'm not stupid or braindead. I know how people think about me and i clearly dont give a shit. I can pretty much figure someone out when I have a few minute's talk with them.
You can have as much power as you want. But in the end the material posession has made you. You have not made it. I don't think i spent all of 6th grade declaring my independence like america in 1776 just to have this happen.

Please get over it. Just because you don't get whatever the hell you want doesn't mean you can take it out on someone *who not to mention is infinity times way awesomer than you*. oh WAAAAAAAH *fake cries* OML, like no way. People don't get what they want in life?! So it wasn't natural after all?! IT was a fracking lie?! OMLLLLLLL *leshocccccck, that is like so totally shellshocked, man!* Get outta town!!! No....is that possible?~ I have never heard of this before! Treason! All hail Her Brazenly *in private* Demure Lowness Amelia Mignonette Grimaldi Thermopolis Renaldo, Crown Princess of Geno......ooooh wait! America CANNOT have royal titles accroding to the constitution, so therefore, for you to have such luck as to get whatever you desire is hence forth, BANNED.
DENIED. THE BILL IS KILLED.
We find this completely and all out unconstitutional and just plain immature.
Could anyone else besides me not see this happening?! </sarcasminsertionhere>
Screw that.
Ah, the immaturity. Tis too easly for high school to ruin us all, dammit. Sadly, some of us will eternally be stalk the spotlight, turning it away from others until our skin wrinkles to such an extent. This is why i hate competitions
Superchic[k] song of the day: Highschool

These are the ways are so high school: If someone puts you down thats so high school, if some one talks behind your back thats so high school, and if you have to get them back that's also highschool.
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Some people never change never change after graduation.
Believing any light you shine makes their lesser, they have to PROVE to everyone that theirs is better.
These are the rules, the ways of highschool:
If someone puts you down thats so high school, believing that they're too good for you is so highschool, and if you believe it too that's also highschool. I know, I'll be graduating early! *oh my damn, you stupid counselours! these teenagers are lying to you! Don't be dense!*
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We've all got bad year book photos, which we forgot to let go, and just like acne, our insecurity should be something we left with the JV. So if you're still letting go of year bok photos, things we kept that hold us down, that was yesterday, there's always tomorrow, WE ARE TOMORROW, WE ARE TOMORROW.
*****
Stupid highschool.
*Hence the HIGHschool.*


IDL-I died laughing and OML-Oh My Loki are the only IM speech sayings that i will ever use. Understood?!
Kudos to Madeleine Long for making that up. How come i didnt think of that?! I'm almost ashamed to say that i didnt think of that first........Then again, I'm not the one that is easily sturred by many things. Besides ugly people. Inside and out.


Things I've typed to express the never ending buzzing going on to my left. Yeah.......I wasn't on a roll until after i finished this. My *semi*sincere self derisions for this bucket of EPIC failure.
*was going to be posted on youtube, but i went over the character limit, thus, it wound up here*
I know, this sucks
just like Romeo. The rose line was Juliet's. If another guys uses that pickup line, i swear i will have to go buy a chainsaw.

"Hold on this slice of life is going to be pain stakenly long:
I am not having a good April. Luckily, the month ends today. The poseur "friend" *yes, the one who [attempts] to be me, but fails at a sure fire distance* is now saying that i "always get what i want". Personally, what DOES she know about what i WANT? Hmmmmm?! She hasn't been to my house for years. She couldn't possibly know what i want *besides her to transfer out of the country* This makes my blood boil. A poor person is in a bad situation, but a greedy one is even worse.
Okay so let me explain a bit more in depth: Back in the day i was spineless and she was what i thought *but still wasn't* was a "real" friend. Then i realized one enchanted day when i discovered superchic[k] that she was just using me because i was just there. She held on to me to make her feel better about herself. So i broke away and declared independence via superchic[k] and angst. Since then i have always resented her. And now she's using a "payback" card. But really, it's not effective. It's like using normal type moves on a ghost type pokemon *that made no sense to you right now, did it?* I used to be a brat *but never spoiled* because well, i was the old me. There's quite a difference between my old self and now.
She really liked my stuff when we were little. Most of the stuff i have is never anything i really "wanted". I just okayed it and it was mine. My mentality is out of reach from hers because I don't cling or obsess over OBJECTS. That's right, i dont value my things. As much as it sounds like I'm an ingrate, I'm just not material like she is. Hell, i feel like burning all the money i have. It's evil. While it's true that [I] get what i want because i know how to get it, i never mean that in a material way. I could never WANT that much. I go by the law of NEED, not WANT. I get what i want because I never force myself to get it no matter what. I will never have a thought about having something to make myself look "cooler". I make myself better by using myself, not others and inanimate objects *though it could be debatable for many other people's brains.* I MAKE myself. Life isn't about "finding", "searching", or "seeking" for yourself. It's actually supposed to have you CREATE yourself. I'm not selling myself out as a stencil rental for 5 cents. I'm not that cheap. Economically preservant, but never cheap. All those things i have are NEEDED for me to be me. But all the things she WANTS are things to lose herself even more, if she was ever there in the first place. She honestly can't see that she's the one who caused herself jealousy. Well sorry, hon, she really needs to get over herself. She's blind by herself. Perhpas i should donate a pair of my glasses to her.

Ugh. Rant. So long since i've had one this long. It's not even that long. Sorry for clogging your page..... not that i regret any of this. I'm just saying "sorry" so people excuse the big patch of rant."

That made me look like a sad excuse. I'll do better next time, i swear. @#$%^&
I'm running out of icon slots!!! NOOOOOO

Shakespeare. I read one of his plays. It was crap. Somehow i imgained love was more than "Hey, ur pretty, let's get married and die." He has a few lines that are geniunely good, but besides that, I don't comprehend why it's so great. Sure it's good, if you like tradgic romances that happen to be tradgic only because of coincidence *which don't exist because of hitsuzen!!!!!*.

You Are a Burrito

You're not a picky person. You're able to go with the flow and really enjoy life. You have a taste for the exotic, and you're quite adventurous. You're willing to try almost anything. You're very low maintenance. You don't mind getting a bit messy if it means having fun. You aren't superficial or easily impressed. Someone has to be the real deal if they're going to impress you.

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Thought

You believe a mind is a terrible thing to waste, and you try to exercise your brain as much as possible. You are intrigued by almost everything, and you are curious about the world around you. You want to travel to foreign lands, read lots of books, and master many subjects. You love to go on all sorts of adventures, especially the kind that don't require you to leave your room.

You Believe that Love is Devotion

When you think of love, you think of committing to one person for the rest of your life. In love, you see things as they are. You accept and love your partner's faults. If you are in love, you want the whole world to know it. You don't hold back with letting people know. You are patient in love. You are willing to wait for the right person and the right time.

You Are a Strawberry Smoothie

You are a well rounded, complex person. You have many sides to you. You are quite sweet, but you are not fake or sugary. You keep it real. People appreciate your fresh and honest approach to life. You call things as you see them. You are comfortable with who you are. You know you're well loved, and you love yourself.

You Are a Blueberry Smoothie

You are original and expressive. You have a strong, vibrant personality. You tend to be attracted to the unconventional and obscure things in life. You have strong opinions and preferences, even if they do tend to change a lot. You are not particularly artistic, but you have an artist's temperament.

You Are Vitamin D

You're a naturally strong person. You've always had a lot of endurance. You can survive what would make most people crumble. You have both mental and physical strength. You don't do a lot to stay healthy - you just live a pretty natural lifestyle. You stay away from processed junk, sleep like a baby, and get plenty of sunshine!

Current [Ness]: giddy

Ah, sweet victory....it's in my clutches.
I win. and you will lose to my glorious Will. This is how you win, without trying or being connected to the situation directly.
You just can't stop me. Muahahahaha.
Oh Prussia, he never ceases to amaze me. There was a fanmix posted on hetalia yesterday, so naturally i downloaded because Prussia is made of awesome and hopefuly though hours of listening to it, I shall become even more awesome than I already am.
My favorite was Don't Mess With Me by Temposhark. In a way, it fits my ruthless side *rarely shown to the public...because what they don't know WILL be their downfall* Because of hetalia, I knocked about 5 gigs off my harddrive. Gotta love it.
This just proves, that I always win, in some way or another. Mess with me and you're as good as dead. *is it meor does that song have cello in it?*
My grandparents are at my house. I really want to rub my grandpa's head. It's really smooth and irresistably shiny. I'd rather hang out with old people than most of the fracktards in my age group. I've got time to kill. I'm done "finding" myself because I know that I'm with myself. It's not about finding yourself in life, it's about crafting yourself. I realize that it'll never seem like I'll be done with "finding" myself. Alas, that's not exactly what I'm doing. I've found myself, but i wont ever let go of my sense of being. Besides, that was and always will be the whole point, dammit. I SHALL NEVER LET GO of this journal!
Normally, I'd make my paragraphs longer. Yes, i really have gotten rotten at doing this. I shall get to rereading my old entries.
I'm going to azula-nee's house.
*will edit entry later*
Quiz tiems
*copy and pasted from kerriri, but never completed from my own info*
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old
[] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I've lost a *n inner* child. *NOOOOO, like i'd ever have a real kid, but I lost my inner child. My childhood was robbed!*

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[] I failed more than 1 class last year
[] I've stolen something from my job
[] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[] I've had chicken pox.
[] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan. *airport*
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing. *not enjoyable
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. *very disgusting*
[] I've been snowboarding


Relationships
[x] I'm single
[] I'm in a relationship
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex, even a worshipful one.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.


Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. *its healthy*
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name. *no, but i would if i felt like it
[x] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[] I bake well.

[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue, dark red *what does this have to do with anything?*
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] All of those are answered honestly. *except for this one! muahahaa*

Current [Ness]: satisfied

After some thought *and shameless procrastination* I've found a song that beats the tar out of the so called "graduation" theme song "our" school committee forced us to choose from a list of lame and meaningless songs found in mainstream radio. I never listen to radio. How can any of those represent all of us?! THIS IS AMERICA. And before i go on bashing how the majority treats the almost invisible and courage drained minorities, I'm saying that the majority does not makeup america. What everyone has went through during the ENTIRE history of america makes america. That's right. Every single second. What everyone HERE has had happened to them. The things we cannot deny. Not what some random white guy says. What WE all don't say because there's far too much for us to say. We'll need a gallon of water to help us get through a rant that lists all the fights that WE have had to get this far.
There is no "us" and "them". Whoever thinks so needs to GET OVER IT. PERIOD.
Don't thouch America till you know what's fracking inside it.
I can't believe I'm actually defending America.....for once. the thing is I finally realized that it isn't america's fault that the people in it are screwed. It's the screwed's fault. Not my problem. They're just sullying the way that American is "supposed" to be. But somehow through a series of warped visions something went wrong.......

I was watching a fanvid of USA and I have to say that THIS is what it's really supposed to be. Before I was just "meh, america" but now I'm just ticked off at the idiots who think they can make US look bad. *I hope i can still do HTML from my neopets days.*

THAT should be the graduation song.
Because saying "here I am" is better than whatever the hell david cook, or whatshisface can come up with. *not that I've heard of his song before. I'm just saying that I don't want anything to do with the SCHOOL'S decision. I'm gonna throw my own graduation thing with the MUSIC [i] want.
Graduation isn't the end. It's just the whole fracking beginning, yo. And only the strong make it out alive. I used to automatically count as that, but now I'm FIGHTING. Fighting all these obstacles in my way because I DONT GIVE A DAMN WHAT THEY SAY, YOU'RE JUST LUCKY I DON'T GO INTO MONOLOGUES IN FRONT OF ALL THESE CHILDREN. I'm sure they'd all cry if i did......that'd be hillarious.
Yes, Alice the anomalous likes to laugh at crying children. It helps me sleep at night.
There is not ONE song that describes middle school. None that are in someone else's itunes program that is. Mine fit just fine.
I'll post the songs that I think are worthy enough. Not any of that popular trash *still, some offense, but less than 50% of it. I never listen to radio or anything main stream. I go my own way and find my own music my own way.* What in the world? Just because we consent to a nasty song because it was better than the other 3 doesn't mean we like it at all. It just means that it was better than the others.

Does anyone else think that Spirit the Stallion of the Cimmeron's soundtrack is PWNAGE?! The music fits all essence of ME! *and alfredm, of course* I mean listen to it! The movie itself is made of awesome! *I bet Gilbo had something to do with that*. I personally like the early 2000's animation better than now's. Present animation looks cool and all, but it doesn't have the same....what do you call it?..."heart" to it. It doesn't look like the pencil brought the same amount of effort as the computers did. I want to see the faces constantly move, not just the mouths.
DON'T BE SO DAMN LAZY, 2009!

Thrid quarter ended some days ago. Not the greatest time of my life, but I'll make up the failure with the EPIC WIN i bring naturally. I still have my Tophgod worshippers.
Worst report I've ever gotten:
Mostly A+'s and As but ONE B, and TWO B+s. This is a disgrace. Not that anyone *including my parents* gives a damn. I don't even give a damn. Grades are worth shit. That just shows you what you wrote on pieces of paper that won't even go into the infernal pits of the recycling chain of "life". Not my fault. One B- project and suddenly the whole percentage goes whack.

TIS SPRING BREAK, FRACKTARDS. This means all the stories I'm working on are now officially off hiatus....once i get to writting those new chapters. I'm refreshing my memory of my characters. It's been a while since....anything, really.
I went on a shopping frenzy for books this month. Books that I bought months ago still lay on my table, unread. That must be fixed.
Spring Break Reading list:

Stardust *I cannot stand the writting style of Neil Gaiman. It's annoying. The plot was awesome though. I've survived the worst. Stardust was better than evernight by lifetimes.*

I beat pokemon platinum on the 5th and I got to burn joss money for dead people *who are related to me*. The game was way better than the original. Getting through Stark Mountain was pure agony. I almost ran out of repels...........I did better than the first time through. I didn't even catch heatran the first time. I still haven't, but at least i know i could.
Maybe having an espeon was a good idea after all.......
Kuroshitsuji's finale was pretty awesome. I know it's not like the manga, but an anime is supposed to be an adaptation of the manga. If it WERE the same as the manga, why bother watching it? Sebastian and his bitch boots <3 I don't think Ciel's soul was actually taken...maybe they were just avoiding to show us what REALLY happened *coughyaoicough* between ciel and sebas-chan.
Hetalia has still occupied my vital regions mind. It's just too awesome to resist.


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Glorious quiz results:
*still refusing to use a but on anything because this journal is personal but still here for the world to see.*

You Are a Snow Leopard

You have learned that you must rely on yourself, and yourself alone, to live a happy life. You are understand the world better than most people you know. You are very perceptive and intuitive. You need lots of space to think. If you don't get the space you need, you're likely to bite someone's head off. Because you are so thoughtful and solitary, people find you to be intense and mysterious. You're even seen as intimidating.

What Big Cat Are You?

You Are Basil

You are a mild mannered person. People feel naturally calm around you. You are warm hearted and loving. You have a close knit circle of friends and family. You have the courage to be who you are in life, even if others disagree. You're proud of your uniqueness. You are good at caring for and healing others. You are naturally soothing.

What Herb Are You?

You Are Dusk

You are a naturally idealistic and creative person. You look forward to nights where everything is possible. You spend most of your energy on play. Work is okay, but the true you emerges after the work day is done. You're an offbeat type that doesn't like rules or schedules. Life's too short to waste at a desk in a cube. Whether you spend your night socializing or working on side projects, you like that your time is yours.

Are You Dusk or Dawn?

You Are Super Stylish

You've got style, no doubt about it. You always look your best. You are on top of trends, and you carefully pick what works for you. You dress for the occasion, and you never wear anything inappropriate. You only own the best clothing and accessories. You know how to make an impression.

Are You Stylish?

I'M ALIVE!-
[Alice~Average Everyday Sane Psycho] *not so average, no?*
OH, GLORIOUS ANGST, YOU'VE COME BACK TO MEH!
By the way, I added a Prussia moodtheme, replacing the purple stars as my mood thing. Why? Because I'm spreading the 5 metre love.
GILBO HAT UNSER LIEB! *Gilbo has our love!*

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To Stalk me go here: Where the flame of life's not held down by the rocks of life

Current [Ness]: infuriated

Current Form of Entertainment: Here I Am; Brothers Under the Sun-Bryan Adams

Hetalia has been injected into my system! And there's no way to get it out! Prussia and his 5 meters........ My editor-sama would like that five meters very much. oi, it's FIVE meters. thats about 50 times as big as........ *coughhack*

Oh, yes. Hallo, all! My loyal fan(s) that is/are reading this!
I bring thee a quiz dump of epic proportions.
It's that time of the year again.......Solo Ensemble. and yet again, I'm not prepared, as always. I've been procrastinating too much. I'm not bad, I'm just lazy......
I've gotten through 8 out of 10 suzuki books. I lack all traces of genuine effort, but I got through them.
Ack, i have no idea how my old *has no other word for "old"* speech pattern was like! I don't even have a good way to say that i dont have any idea!!!
This is horrible!!!! *has no word to replace horrible with*
Dammit. School has been forcing me away from the glorious internet, my true kingdom of everlasting angst.
March is the worst time of the year for me. First of all, my sister was given life during this month. That alone should ruin the 30 days afterwards. Second, teachers enjoy piling up projects for us in March. It's like we're entertainment that PAYS THEM. and third, st partrick's day. I refuse to wear green JUST so i can avoid being pinched! I'm not irish *i have nothing against the irish though. I'm jsut saying I'm not white.* and i don't celebrate and saint days. I'm not catholic or religious. DEAL WITH IT, you shrews.
I am sick of the invisible prejudice *needs to stop using this specific word* against people who aren't "believers"! What is up with that!? I mean maybe "god" *chyaaa, right* created "atheists" * i dont like having my opinions being labeled with ONE word, dammit.* so "believers" could learn how to be tolerant of all people. Freedom of religion for all my 5 meter gilbert foot. More like freedom of religion for yourselves.
ONE MORE THING. I don't capitalize "god". We only capitalize nouns in german and other languages. Are you going to egg me just because i have "bad" spelling?! I don't egg those brats of a bunch of classmates' houses because their spelling is agonizingly made of SHIT even though ENGLISH, the language that is their first is their FIRST and mine isn't. We don't need free eggs either. I find "charity cases" like that repulsive because I obviously won't take that "charity".

You Should Light a Coconut Candle

You are simple yet exotic. You are colorful, bold, and wild... but you're not picky or fussy. In your group of friends, you are the fascinating one. You always have an amazing story to tell. You're the type of person that no one ever forgets. You make a lasting impression. You yearn to travel more and are always dreaming of your next adventure. You love expanding your horizons.

You Are Dare

You are outrageous, adventurous, and wild. You live to have fun. You are all about taking risks and pushing limits. You love the rush of doing something forbidden. Like most daring people, you are highly intelligent and creative. That's why you get bored so easily. You need a lot of stimulation and novelty in your life. You aren't satisfied with the mundane.

You Are a Carrot Cake Cupcake

You are a complex person. You have many interesting layers to your personality, though others might not know it. You are drawn to a cross section of people. You friends play different roles in your life. You are like a cupcake because you are are deceptively simple. There's actually a lot to you! There are many ingredients in your life, and you only want them in proper amounts. Being you is a delicate art.

You Are the Communicator

You are a collector and facilitator of knowledge. You love storytelling and teaching. You light up when you're around other people, and you especially light up in front of a crowd. You are a charismatic person who's genuinely a joy to be with. You remind others to have fun. You love life, and you're wake up grateful for every new day. This attitude makes the people around you love life as well.

You Are the Crown Chakra

You are truly enlightened. You are humble, unselfish, and without prejudices. You are a humanitarian. You value justice, and you're doing your best to make the world a better place. You are an ethical person. You strive to do the right thing and be good to people. You are able to put your faith and trust in others. You have a lot of faith in humanity.

You Are a Creek

You are a dynamic, energetic person. You tend to change quickly and often. You are spirited and gleeful. You believe it's important to live a colorful life. You are also quite brave. You are able to look past your fears. You have what it takes to be very heroic. If the opportunity arises, you can use your strength.

Your Animal is the Stag

You are a proud, independent person. You take care of yourself and are very attractive. You keep a bit of a distance from the world, but you still understand it well. You are both spiritual and intuitive. You are sensitive to all of the creatures around you. You enjoy travel, especially when it involves a long journey. You especially love traveling outdoors.

Your Animal is the Goose

You are are a resourceful person who needs a lot of stability in life. You rather save for a rainy day, even if it means on missing out on fun impulses. When you feel secure, you are incredibly creative and artistic. You are also very witty. You like to invest in yourself and for the future. You like to always be learning and gaining skills.

You Are Combat Boots

You are a complete and total rebel. You refuse to do what you're told, and you're quite stubborn. You really don't care what other people think of you. You are tough and often ruthless. You are independent, iconoclastic, and countercultural. You resent authority figures. You are very headstrong. No one is going to pressure you into being someone you're not!

You Are The Liver

You are a very versatile, adept person. You are able to do many jobs. You seek balance at all times. You are good at adjusting yourself to keep things level. You are able to counteract bad influences. You can neutralize anything toxic. You are resilient like no one else. You can rebuild yourself completely if you need to.

You Are a Papaya

You are a calm, balanced, and mild mannered person. While you're peaceful and together, you're also quite complex. You are authentic and honest. There are some very distinct elements to your personality. You are exotic and original, but you don't flaunt it. You allow others to discover your subtle complexities.

You Are Pause

Compared to most people, you are reflective and thoughtful. You're always willing to take a break and digest everything that's happened. You are patient with life. You are happy to sit back and let things unfold. You're not in a hurry. You're content to take things at someone else's pace.

Tis official. Most *if not all* russians hate me. I don't know why. Well anyway I feel anti-guilt because there's no need to forgive because I never felt guilt in the beginning. It's not like I'm spiting them on purpose. I don't give a damn if anyone forgives me or not, because I'm no sorry for whatever the hell i did*n't do*. I'm not trying to think of the peope as a whole, but almost every person with russian ancestry my age always ends up hating my guts, minus the people I'm not generalizing. GAAAAAAAAH. Their personalities are so contradicting of themselves!!!!! I'm not racist against russians! It's just SPECIFIC people who HAPPEN to be russian with BAD personalities I don't like.
People of the sullied world, GET A SENSE OF HUMOR. I can't stand people who can't take a joke. And no, if i happen not to like your joke, it probably isn't funny.....or i just don't like you. Either of them make illogical reason, but since when was this war-bound world ever LOGICAL?! There is no FRACKING ROOM in this planet for logic!!!!!! What is "logic" anyway?! Screw that.
I HATE pinheads who don't get the humor.......
HETALIA pwns <3 Simple as that. If you haven't read or watched hetalia, you have no life. How else do you think I ace history class? By studying?! *hahahahaha* NO. I watch hetalia and thus i learn world history *inaccurately at times, but at least tis better than textbooks* PASTA~~~~~~

I got my *hundred dollar* calculator stolen. the fracktard that took it better give it back and LEAVE ALL MY DAMN PENCILS ALONE. I am deeply bonded with my Happy Hannukah pencil. I'm not jewish, but that pencil just looks plain wicked. So shiny and holographic..... I was planning on installing cameras outsite the health room or have some moron miss class *it's not like they need it. 1) It's health, fun with the teacher because she's awesoe, but most of it's common sense, 2) I have morons in my class. Their parents are paying to get them all the way to 12th grade, no questions asked. HOW DARE SOMEONE STEAL FROM ME?!?!?!?!?!! The day you mess with me is the day you dig your own mashed potato pit of a grave. You do NOT ever take from me. EVER. *iron fist*
Memoirs of a Geisha........great movie right? NOT. I tried my best to like it, i honestly did. But I just can't stand any character being a wuss and getting themselves raped......I completely hate america now......*semi true* this gives me a bad image of americans......or maybe just the average joe. I have everything against the AVERAGE JOE. I have this paino teached, his namer is Joe too. But he's anything but average. He's excused from this rant. ITS SO ANNOYING THAT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT "ORIENT" MEANS. What is that? It reminds me of an oreo. It better taste good. Sayuri=Cho-Cho-san. Woman with no power. NOW IS THAT WHAT WE WANNA SEE. And where in the world did her BLUE EYES come from? Personally, that was the only part i liked, the blue eyes, but they were changing between blue and brown through the movie. *wasn't paying attention*
Sayuri's like Cho Cho-san Jr.! I mean if Cho Cho-san had a daughter, she'd be sayuri! There was some improvement, but all too minor in my opinion. Where are the smart asian women these days? Oh wait...I'm an endangered species.........
I realized that I haven't been writting down personal events lately. I can't even remember what I had for breakfast anymore.
I'm watching Kateikyo hitman reborn! Well now that I actually know what it is now, I can use "KHR". Tsuna finally grows some balls after ep 26. FINALLY. His gloves are EPIC. There's also HIBARI and hibird! Hehehehehe, the school song is his ringtone....... My school barely even uses our song......do we even have one anymore?
I'm waiting till the weekends to start doing work on my prejudice paper. In daily speech, I'd never use "prejudice" ever. It's not one of those words that come naturally to me.
I put my writting mind on pause for a few months. It sucks. What a repulsive idea. I can't believe i actually made it through.

*inserts the long awaited angst*
Coming from me, this will not sound weird because everything i say always has a reason to be said. Why else would i say this anyway?! *besdies to make my ego bigger* Sometimes i really wish i had someone that was always by my side. The people that are by my side....well they still might need some explanation for the way i am. That's fine, I've always dwelled on the fact on meeting ONE damned person on this earth that knows the feeling of being the last one there as well enough as I do. In short, will there be a person who'll cry if I died right now? Bleh, this isn't clear enough to explain right now....I'm too rusty, dammit!

P.S. I'm NOT DYING! I'm TOPHGOD! Soceity and their cheat smut attacks will never bring me down! HAZAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!
To get a better fracking idea of what I'm speaking of, I've devised a plot to use one of my newest fandoms to explain my angst to you!:



To see the subtitles better: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw8bbkWUOw0

"If it means that [he] will be happy...I'll....."
"But.....to be happy without you.......has no meaning"

Man, I really wish the world was like Hetalia....with italians running around and yelling "PASTA" at us.......
If you look through my faves on youtube, you can find all the vids I found with this glorious art and *sniff from cold* the heartstring wrenching songs. PrussiaxGermany and N.ItalyxGermany ftw! I love them both...and they're both hot!

Quizes that you don't really wanna see afte the tearfest you surely had right now:

You Would Be a Crafty Superhero

You are naturally curious and even a bit of a snoop. You like to have dirt on everyone - both enemies and friends. You get bored easily and need excitement in your life. You like having problems to solve. You understand people quite well and often know what others are thinking. Because of this, you can get people to do what you want. You tend to feel apart from the rest of the world. You don't really fit in, and you don't try to! You are a true philosopher. You are thirsty for wisdom. You are trying to figure out the meaning of life.

You Are ONE WAY

When you're confronted with a problem, you know exactly how you want to handle it. You are decisive and act quickly. Once you get the ball rolling, you don't change course. You can be a bit stubborn at times, but you have reason to be. You're often right. You are unwavering and brave. You do what needs to be done, even if it isn't popular.

Merry meet, yet again, my brethren!

I have too many projects to do at school, dammit! In language class they're having us do a research project about prejudice. Research? Prejudice? I've done it for 14 years of my life already. *ack, I feel old!!!!!* If I must write this all down in a short 5 paragraphs in essay format, then be it. The 8th grade only gives me one fracking chance to excel and they hold me back the other weeks of the year. I've put on kid gloves for the entire year so far. Morons who don't get the joke in the phrase "alienate unalienable rights" during social studies while ENGLISH is their first damn language. And me, who used that phrase while my second language is english and mastered to a higher extent than theirs. Where has american gone wrong with all of this?
Then in german class the idiots who HAVE SIGNED UP to take a foreign language *more like have it learned for them. The teacher already knows german, so it's pretty useless to do nothing while she babbles on about the difference between the direct object and the subject if no one is listening besides me, though I've learned the difference the during one of the previous 5 times she reminded us about it* say that the whole world would speak english. Well sorry, kids, England couldn't conquer every country in the world and kill all the non "anglo saxons" for you. They just decided to just do one continent. *I won't hold that against UK from Hetalia though.....*
Let's say a bunch of kids in france were saying the same thing, that french was easy, so everyone in the world should speak french or *insert other language here*. How'd you like that?! I cannot speak a word of french besides "neuf" *the number nine in french* and bon voyage. If i had the time I'd like to learn as many languages i can.
Fracking morons, don't sign up for a foreign language if you can't stop denying that you've been ruined by an blindly formed preconception that the whole world should speak english because it's your first language. It's not even perfect if it is your first language. There's this thing called vocabulary. Get some. The dictionary lets you plagerize from it and you can use those words in daily speech! *leshock*.
I can't get over how horrible the vocabulary quality these brattards possess. Disgraceful.
How many times have I mentioned that I'm not in the "hard" reading classes? Come on, the literature classes now give me headaches and bore me even closer to death than they already did years before, not counting 7th grade. I know how to relate to characters if they're any good. And the only reason I can't seem to put any genuine effort into reading books during school is because i think more than half of the books written for teens is purposely written to gain profit because *stupid* teenagers waste their parents' money on garbage like Evernight *a book by Caludia Gray that is a not so cheap immitation of Twilight's marketing success*. It sounded like a dense but somehow can pass off as "intelligent" 13 year old girl who's hormones have just been activated. I, being 13 at the time i bought the book took serious offense. Does the author think that I'm an idiot?! I couldn't read any more of the dribble until i decided to force myself into reading the rest of that THING.
I refuse to answer pointless questions that you can figure out with this thing called common sense. Some guy apparently thought being intelligent was common at the time.
Arrognace and ignorance in the same person?! NOOOO, is that possible?! Yes. It is. For a couple of weeks I actually considered giving a damn about other people's opinions of me. Then I figured it out.....SCREW YOU. But i appaluad you for attempting to make a correct and accurate opinion of me. If only you were good at it.
HETALIA!!! My new fandom! Too bad the eps are only 5 minutes long. Come on, I wanna see some ItalyXGermany action!
Chibitalia is so cute....and so is HRE.

You Are Orange Juice

You are an energetic, driven, motivated person. You are always eager to get started, and you face each day with optimism. You are bright and hopeful. You tend to see what's right as opposed to what's wrong. You are generous and caring. You're always happy to give someone else a little energy boost!

You Would Win Best Director

You are a mastermind with a great plan. You can visualize what you want in life. You are good at leading people and helping them do what you want. You are an excellent coach and teacher. You are a hard worker, and you're willing to see a project to completion - no matter how difficult it gets. You have the both capacity and drive to be an amazing director. Most importantly, you have the vision that's needed.

Current [Ness]: infuriated

I'm sick.
No, seriously. I started to feel like a bag of warts in the middle of german class, I was still able to be a genius without listening. I just didn't feel like showing exceptional effort today....or any other day.
I haven't drawn, written, or done anything productive in what seems like years. That's IT! Screw school. I'm staying home.
Then again....I'd miss that quiz in social studies and then I'll have to retake it....
One of my friends got a livejournal! Hazaaaaah. I just hope she doesn't drag some dead weight with her. Especially the kind that I can poke and call "poseur".
Hoobastank's new CD came out in January, I wasn't a good enough fan to realize until now. It definitely gave me a 2008-09 vibe. I really need a new set of icons. My icons look lame......*the combination does, they rock separately*

I'm planning on killing off my main character's mother. I don't know whether to go through with it or not. I mean, all the characers have a family complex already, so why not?! Bring on the angst! The angst will obviously bring the father to his knees! *his hot and very strong knees!*
I've been thinking *something that you might not know possible* that I need to switch my POV right now. Time to think in Charlotte mode! Let's aim our unadulterated anger at the world and society. Let's not have to change for love! Let's not have to turn into moronic floozies to get love! Let's be what we are because that's all we can be! Let's tear down some concrete and replace it with dirt! That's right, red and RICH dirt that'll let us see what's really beyond the clouds of blinding dust!
My class was trying to list all the cliques at the school. The teacher refrained from using the word clique, so that's pretty much why no one had a complete list.

Has anyone realized how fracking awesome Yuki Kajiura's compositions are? It makes me want to Pwn at violin and cello. Viola is....too viola for me.

I'm too tired to finish this....I'll do it later




Posting this to see if any stalkers are present. I know where you live!!!! *points*
*drops down from fatigue*

Your Energy Level is High

You are a very enthusiastic, productive person. You have no trouble getting anything done. Beyond having a lot of energy, it's likely that your energy level tends to be quite steady. Unlike people with very high energy, you don't tend to be impulsive. By keeping your energy in check, you are able to use it as productively as possible.

You Are Lukewarm

You feel open and generous sometimes, but you don't always feel like being friendly. You're not naturally outgoing or curious about people. Being around others drains your resources. So considering how you feel, you're actually quite warm. You do your best. And you often find it easy to be warm toward the people you like the most.

You Are Tea

You are mellow and reflective. You don't allow yourself to feel in a rush and frenzied. You're likely to appreciated the ideas or connections that come up over a warm cup of tea. While you do enjoy the energy of a caffeine boost, you love that it allows you to take a break. You're not in a rush to do anything. You're content with your life, and in no rush to change it.

Your Valentine's Day Personality is Cynical

You really, truly hate Valentine's Day. It's your least favorite day of the year. You think Valentine's Day fake, tacky, over the top, and meant to make single people feel bad. You realize that Valentine's Day is a holiday that only benefits companies... not couples. You know that real love is not about teddy bears and roses, and you feel like the holiday cheapens emotions.

You Are FAIL

You love the internet, but it sometimes gets on your nerves. How can so much of humanity be so stupid? Wait, you don't even want to know. While there are some good aspects to being online, you can't help but notice there's so much fail. You liked the internet so much more in the good old days... before all the idiots found out about it!

Current [Ness]: indifferent

And not running?! Because running is not lady-like!
I stole this from Katessa from devianrtart. Cross posting this on both.
Yo! I found

Cinderella:
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[ ] You love to dress up
[ ] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming *I dunno if "prince charming" is how to put it. I'm not looking for a classical prince nor someone with that authentic gentleman charm. If he can fake it and still able to remain
[ ] Your mom is really strict *no, but she decides more of my life than she should*
[x] You have sister(s) who seem kind of jealous of you
[ ] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes *who are you speaking to again?!*
[x] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
[ ] You have blonde hair
TOTAL: 3
*thank Loki...*

Belle:
[ ] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[ ] You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[x] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind *because i have one*
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird (Only ONE? Try them all!)
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need *only if i like them*
[ ] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out *it wa a dare anyway.....*
TOTAL: 7

Jasmine:
[x] Your dad is very rich/important
[x] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you *well everyone is different from me, so it's a default.*
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else *dom*
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich *but it would help....*
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[x] You don’t have a lot of friends *you think? wow that's rare...welcome aboard!!!!*
[x] You’re independent
[x] You are wealthy
[x]Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL: 10

Ariel:
[x] Your parents expect a lot from you
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you *tch, i simply dont know what a "rule" is*
[ ] You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[x] You’re the youngest in your family or in the last 2
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[x] You collect something
[x] You have/had long, hair
[x] You have/had a pet fish
[x] You’re extremely curious *not about stupid things though*
[ ] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible
TOTAL: 6

Snow White:
[x] You know that you’re beautiful
[x] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You’ve almost been killed *by stupidity*
[x] You have at least seven good friends *I'll get back to you on that.....do you mean in real life or online? Cause if you put those together you have a lot!*
[ ] You’ve had food poisoning
[ ] You have/had short hair
[x] You get along with almost everyone *if i fake it and actually try*
[x] All of your friends are different *most of the time. we all have the same orgains inside*
[ ] You love to have a good time *what is "love" and "Good"?*
[ ] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in
TOTAL: 6

Mulan:
[ ] You can be a tomboy sometimes. *that word is so old. It's no like i worship the (bleeep). I act neuter sometimes, not like a guy and not like a girl*
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly *edagcoughmomcough*
[ ] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[x] You’ve had a physical fight with someone *mental is inside the brain and the brain is physical so yes!*
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[x] Your parents try to plan your life out
[ ] a lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[ ] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
TOTAL: 5

Aurora:
[ ] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[ ] You almost died at a very young age
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful *especially the last one*
[x] You have a decent singing voice *compared to the school choir.....and regular speaking voices of most of those in choir...no offense to anyone that is. I just don't sqeuak, okay?*
[ ] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[ ] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic *not in the traditional sense*
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 3

Pocahontas:
[ ] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[x] You are more spiritual than religious *dom*
[x] You’ve been in an interracial relationship *you're kidding, I'm setting this as default because I'm the only me*
[x] One of your family members is dead *they're called ancestors*
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[x] Someone you know has been in war *the world*
[x] You love nature *but i wont come in contact with it, i see the beauty fine from inside*
[x] You have/had black hair *how can you have HAD it? either you do or don't*
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful *away from this place*
[x] You’re very adventurous
TOTAL: 9

I'm a Jasmine...yay. I still end up marrying the male counterpart......


I am not a person who see's god's light, but rather a shadow, just like the rest of us. *snide reference in which no one will get*.

I am an angry asian girl at whoever says "poor you". Keep your pity~

Current [Ness]: indifferent

Hallo, all!
I realize it's been well over ......well a really long time since I've produced one of my ever so infamous rants!!!! Do not despair, dear reader, for I have uncovered a treasure trove of new material! Anime, fandoms, pop culture refereneces, songs to angst to, and hopefully books with some interesting character developement.
Almost everything is new. I just have to get used to typing this fast again.....and the dreaded spelling! I have to pause everytime i don't know how to spell something..... It's like I've forgotten how to type! NEVER! It's like riding a bike....though I don't know how to ride a bike..... or swim for that matter.....
I started rereading twilight for the sheer feeling of stimulation that I've been lacking for the past few weeks. Bored, bored, bored. I've written almost nothing during winter break. I had to write a SHORT story, and we all know how impossible this is for me, for language class. I asked for an extention of length, and of course, from my "good student" exterior *which is truely not an intended facade, I just happen to be more intelligent than most without trying. Though i cannot be labled as "prep" because they seek perfection with effort. I don't seek perfection. When perfection rules society, that will be the true end of the world because once something is perfect, you can't get better at anything, you just stay the same. Time stands still. In fracking simple terms, you're like a machine. This thing called "perfection" makes you inhuman. It's insane in my eyes to go after perfection, because it's virtually unontainable anyway. Like Darkrai in my pokemon games..... something that just isn't worth the effort* and my apparent passion *what is this "passion" must be foreign.....* for writting, I got what i wanted.

What was originally a 3 page double spaced assignment, i twisted and turned it into a 22 *double spaced* page of a disgraceful attempt *yeah right, this wasn't an attempt.* of apathetic yet slightly snarky series of observations that Lacrymossa never put any feeling into. Let's just say he was hiding quite a *lot* few things from his past that he'd rather not share with a bunch of dense 8th graders that won't even get the story.
Don't worry, it was only 10 pages regular spaced. My teacher wanted me to waste paper because she had to grade it. And eventually, I'll have to read it out loud....in front of the class....
Yet another pointless decision made by the whitefish bay district forcing the students to be in a situation that we'd never want to be in. I have nothing to prove to these brats. I'm not shy, I just know for a fact that they'll automatically think it's "soooo good" because they THINK *amazing, that never happens anymore in the 21st century* they know who I am. Tch, that makes me laugh.

New anime?! You never thought I would say that phrase again, didn't you?
I went through animecrazy.net during break *alas, this is the last day of freedom and i must cherish it* and watched a series of OVAs. It was only 6 episodes long and based on a manga that was 2 volumes long. Murder Princess was something that I thought I wouldn't watch because it had the word "princess" in the title. But then again, it also had "murder"...... Such conflicting words that without open minded people in thw world, would never be put together in one sentence. *do i sound like anthony bourdane right now?! blame travel channel*
I thought Alita would have shown a little more reluctance to accept Farith as the princess. But i suppose she loved her kingdom enough to give that away. Farith was just EPIC WIN, she killed most of the monsters in one slash! The blood....... and violence.....that made me go through all 6 eps. And I have to say, Romi Paku is one hell of a seiyuu.
Speaking of characters she's played, she's also Madame Red in Kurshitusji! Ciel is too cool for words *that sounded so cheesy girl next door schoolgirl, dammit* He and Sebastian drew me in during the first episode. Does anyone else think that Ciel gives of an Arty-kun vibe? All the dark and ingenius rich boys gotta have black hair and blue eyes. Is this some motif that i never caught onto?! *okay, well, I have actually.....*
Girl!Ciel PWNs.

The Twilight movie left its mark in my head. I have to get all traces of it out of my head. I can't imagine the characters the way i did before the movie. I just have to forget about the movie and not think about it. Thats the only way i can get my image of the story back. I think I know why the people that don't like twilight think they way they do. First and foremost, the FANTARDS. They give off a bad image of many of the *sane* fans. And second, when they read the book, they already have some expectation of the book. They don't start out reading as an outside thrid person, as they would with some other book that doesnt have an infamous rep. WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD THEY EVEN THINK ABOUT THE REPUTATION?! I thought people who had opinions would at least ignore the Stephenie Meyer worshippers and just read through the whole damn book and then say "it sucked" or something because then they would confirm their opinion isntead of just saying it sucked in the beginning because they hate the fans, not the book. There's soceity for you. Yes, even people with brains have flaws that I can see through.
It ticks me off that like food, you just go with what you're most comfortable with.

Dark Horse is the dirtiest Nickleback album to date....or so I hear. Actually, I haven't been a fan of Nickleback, but their new album is pretty good, hehehe. My favorite is Just to get high. NO, it's not the kind of song that tells people to get high or something like that. It literally sends the message that getting high is a pointless way to die. I will say no more about the rest of the songs, because.....well you just have to listen to them for yourself. I'm not the kind of person that talks sex inthe dirty fashion. In the blunt fashion I would, but meh, I;d rather not.

....::::BOOK NEWS::::....

I'm writting down little tidbits for everything in my journal, but most of the info and plotlines are stored in my brain for secrecy.
I'm not for writting a million drafts to get something right. If i want something done, I'll go and do it. I love how all the stuff I've written has turned out....in the official "books" i mean. If they didn't make it in the word document, then i really put it on my list to redo them. I edit all the grammar and spelling mistakes as I go. Serisously, the most my editor has done is comment that she's only reading for entertainment. She fantards my characters, hahaha.
She got two promotions because I got bored of her being called "editor person". She was "editor-san" and then I bumped her up to editor-sama.

Scarlett Dusk.....I was just plain RUSTY when i wrote any of this. No comment. I'm planning in on writting in the character Xavier *Mossy's runaway buddy*. He reminds me of Kazuki.....just more charismatic. His angst style is less dark. When he angsts, it's in broad daylight and it comes from pure "light". Kazuki's thoughts come from the "dark", it you get what I'm trying to say.

Tags: angst, blue moon, book, bored, ciel, crash&burn, cynical theories, dark horse, fandom, fantard responsibly, kuroshitsuji, rant, refusing to go back in time, reread, scarlett dusk, snow lily, why is it so damn hard to change?!, witty banters

To Stalk me go here: Trying to fix me typing habits into the glorious legend

Current [Ness]: indifferent

Current Form of Entertainment: Monochrome Kiss