It certainly has been a long time since I've posted. Livejournal says it's been 6 weeks. Who's been counting. So far all the celebrities I don't car about have died. I have to mention that when my sister ATTEMPTED to force me to listen to MJ's songs, I pulled out me BOISE Noise cancelling head phones.
That means they don't let me hear outside noise.
I have nothing personal against Michael Jackson *look, I'm capitalizing his name. He's a proper noun.* because I've never met the guy and I never will. I tend to think of the famous and rich as regular people. And as you know with regular people, I don't give a damn. That's just how it is. I was never really into his music and I won't say anything negative about it because I don't really know it. You can't force me to get into it. At least I'm not flamming him or anything. Be thankful for this. It's the best kind of kindness that isn't cheesy.

I'm not done yet. I accidentally pressed enter and I have plenty more to, that's right, RANT about.
I'm considering having a new layout for my journal. Dear readers, this sadistic writter needs input on which, if at all, journal layout I should choose. Of course, i don't like being told what to do. I just wanna see how you'll like the ones I found. In the end, regardless of any opinions/mindless comments/etc. I'm choosing the one I like the best. Maybe i should take a picture and archive all my past layouts. None of them will be made by me because Loki knows I'm too lazy to design anything by myself *on a computer at least.*
OML, mythbusters is on! *watches*
I'm still here, dammit :D
*shows off Prussia moodtheme for all who've not seen*
PRUSSIA! <3
SO AWESOME.
NORWAY IS LOVE.
UK and his caterpillers eyebrows.
There's not one hetalia character that i hate, but there are just some that I like more than others.
I'm not particularilly fong of China, mostly because I know how China can be, but for the most part, they got my love for Hello Kitty right. YES, tis true. I have a love for hello kitty. Tis nothing to be ashamed of. I am who I am. *will make a double post to rant about all of the her psychological findings*
Since the last time i posted anything that was didly, I learned how to read Korean! WHOOOOOT.
Worship my semi-mastery of reading hangul! I'm still working on how to type it, but so far I can read the name of authors and such.
I also reread Night Road, as EPIC as it is, I still can't help thinking that romance is irrational. Though it can be worth gallons of whipped creamy HOT, if you have to change for someone you love, you're not being the same person they loved in the first place, no? Love=Breeding season.
I'm not up for rational or irrational. I think what I think. Simple as that. I'm sick of people telling me what they think because honestly, I don't care unless if I have a reason to. I only care if there's something of interest to say. *like hetalia! OR anime. OR languages. OR books. Or .....what else is there? YAOI......*
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I paid TAX TWICE today. WHY IN THE WORLD would I have to do that TWICE?! FOR CANDY?!
The sales lady was racist.........
I was the only non-european american friend there. What has the world come to? Everyone is RACIST. Not because of continental race, but because we're all homo sapiens. If you hate another homo sapien, you're racist against your own race, PERIOD.
SCREW THE RULES, I HAVE MONEY!
*got that from the Nordics fan community from a comic that said Norweigans cross the border to go shopping for food in Sweden.*
That's what I would have said if this were a free world.
"SCREW THE RULES I HAVE MONEY! Now give me my candy, bitch! Blondie *nothing wrong with being blonde*, I CAN count. Asians are supposed to smart *is shot for the stereotpye*, at least get the stereotype right."
In the service industry there are many things you have to get right for me to be your valued, and semi-sardonic customer.
FIRST of all: If you must stereotype *you bastard*, get it RIGHT.
SECOND: Don't do it at all! *gets Switzerland. "How many times do you want to be shot?"*
THIRD: I'm paying, bitch. That's right, your paycheck. So SERVE ME RIGHT.
FOURTH: You just got PWNED.
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I've also been doing some research on language family trees.
Now I understand why I can't read French at all and why Spanish doesn't appeal to me. I have no experience with Romance languages at all!
I'm only good at germanic languages and mandarin. And I'll start from scratch there. Eventually I WILL learn all the languages when i rule the world. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My hetalia papercrafts are going smoothly. Except NOW I've found Kuroshitsuji characters available at my disposal.
For my editor-sama, I have written, but not completed, the long awaited hiatus closing short: The Butterknife. It's in Ezekiel POV, one of the characters I made specifically for [Myth 100], another one of my story ideas that I've never put into action until now. I suppose I should explain what [Myth 100] is about. Here goes a lot......
The main character is an enigmatic anti-hero that isn't your normal angsty protagonist that spends the whole book trying to get over whatever betrayed or hurt them. He has quite a sinister past, which he refuses to reveal, stating that it's too "'impure" and that it would sully a normal soul. He appears to be around 23 years of age but his eyes say that his soul seems to be.....recycled, to say the least without me going on about what colour they are and how it fits his personality, blah blah blah.
I might consider doing some biblical research for this because according to my friends, I have no idea who this 'Jesus' guy is. Mythos doesn't have a blind sixth sense but he still can't pay the rent for his apartment and/or office, therefore he needs to hire some help and delay their pay until he can book a job with enough money and get on without reaping his employees' income annually. Thus, he starts an inverstigation agency. He takes cases anywhere from crimes such as rapes or theft to inverstigations for the unexplainable, and maybe the occassional cat stuck in a tree if he gets free candy. Alas, it's only natural that he needs to hire help suitable for such cases.
His gaang of misfits:

The separated paternal twins~Finvarrah and Romulus.
Finvarrah is the elder by 13 minutes

.....
You know I'm gonna make a separate post for this.

Tags: "friends", [ness], angst, anti-deign syrum, blue moon, book, by me, editor-sama, epic, epic win, genius, glorious, hemovore, hetalia, i belong to me, lingo mastery, love?, music "appreciation", night road, rant, real, screw gentry sluts, screw society, writting

To Stalk me go here: *Is a Stranger on a Strange land*

Current [Ness]: amused

Current Form of Entertainment: Cantarella-Shion Kaito (Vocaloid)

Hallo brethren!
I'm sick at home *without swine flu* for the day. I wasted all of it. That's right, i stayed home, doing Loki knows what. I didn't even watch all the anime episodes i could have crammed in.
After my last joural entry, i actually feel much better than i did a week ago. School is almost over, i swear! I'm aggravated with myself because when days are just something to get through until some other day, there's really no point is there? I supposed tis time to make yet another iron fist and start another reign of Glorious Anomalies~
I'm back to making amvs too, even if it's only ten seconds.
I've been attempting to finish Jane Eyre, which is 552 fracking pages long. That's about the length of twilight, and I've read books twice as long. I have to finish it in a few days because that's the due date. Of course i could always get an extention on that because....IT'S ALLOWED. Charlotte Brontë is so far better than Jane Austen. Damn, i should be reading the book instead of doing this right now.

For a long time, I've always wanted to make a soundtrack of 10 to 12 songs that i can listen to that'll get me back to my egoistic self right away. I've decided that I've wasted enough time trying to get by without any amo or help. Thus, with the assistance of puched hetalia fsts, i narrowed the list down to 82 songs. Now I just have to pick from those and put them in an order that's good enough......
WHAT'S UP WITH THIS?! Have I lost all sense of attachment to myself?! Theses sentences are truly too simple....*can't find another word for truly* Gaaaah, that's it. PAUSE.
*skips this part of the entry*
Songs on my mind:

I'm still here-Goo Goo Dolls *headstrength points+12*

Infinity-Sheyrl Norm *glorious. charisma points +25*

Stand in the Rain (regular version) *finally found it! WHoooot*

Marukaite Chikyuu *wants a prussian version* <---isn't going to happen. *settling for the manips*

Don't Mess With Me-Temposhark *the perfect song for an obnoxiously quiant good going day for me* [sardnoicism points+50]

Not that Big [charisma points+20] *seemingly reminds me of my inability to use chopsticks*

...With vampire by Lm.c *fantard points+31]

Love is War (Koi wa Sensou) *style and charisma points+20 each, inspiration points+30*-Miku version *i think*

At age 13 *inspiration points+60*-Vidoll


I think Junjou Romantica has inspired me to go write yaoi now, as wrong as it might sounds. I do this because I WANT TO. I will aspire to be like Usagi-san! *fist up* It won't be any of that "i dont know what love really is and i shall struggle to understand what the hell is going on" kind of yaoi, please, i can do much better than that. I won't allow characters with high pitched voices, they just get annoying as ukes and characters in general.
Mossy would not be pleased.
After JR, i watched Kirepapa and Papa to kiss in the dark since my friend told me that they were half way decent. They still don't measure up to JR because in JR there are no animal sounds when there's action going on! The characters' hair weren't from a rainbow either. And plus the characters were just whatever and blank in those two OVAs. I prefer JR to a lot of things because Akihiko is adorable *coughhot/skilled/awesome* and Misaki isn't feminine at all. He's a normal boy! *pinocchio!*

I got the Last Olympian in hopes to finish it by graduation. It ain't happening. I have too many charactersthings to procrastinate work on.

EDIT: OML, i forgot to add that I've made well over 52 papercrafts in may. That counts as doing something! I have a Prussian army of five and they're all ready to invade your vital regions!
I have a British army too. We have faeries! JOIN USSSSSSSSSS. Become one with Russia!

*goes back to reading Jane Eyre*

Quiz Dump
I find no need for a cut, since this is MY journal. *doesn't know how to use cuts still*

You Are Rain

You are dark and dramatic. You tend to be a bit over the top. You have strong emotions and they can change quickly. You are tempestuous. You are wild and unpredictable. You tend to overwhelm and surprise people. While you are aggressive, you are also a homebody. You don't really care for physical activities.

Are You Rain or Snow?

You Are Bitter

You aren't bitter at the world, even though you have a strong personality. Instead, you are sophisticated and cultured. You appreciate acquired tastes. You are very powerful. You have the ability to change a room's energy. While some may find you disagreeable, your points of view are intelligent and interesting.

What Taste Are You?

You Are the Library

You are very intellectual and well read. You tend to be absorbed in your own interests. You can seem a bit standoffish. To be honest, you're not that interested in other people. You are comforted by the things you own. You tend to be a pack rat. It's likely that you have many old possessions that you treasure. You rarely throw anything away.

What Room of the House Are You?

You Are Not A Show Off

You're happy with who you are, and you don't need other people's affirmations to prove it. You don't really like excess attention, and you prefer to blend in with the crowd. You are modest and humble. You don't make a big fuss out of your accomplishments. You prefer to fly under the radar. The people who matter most will like you no matter what.

Are You a Showoff?

You Are Shampoo

You are refreshing and cheerful. You don't hold on to a lot of baggage in life. You are a true optimist. For you, every day is a fresh start. You are confident and bold. You are proud of who you are, simple as that. You are passionate about life and its possibilities. You don't hold back.

What Bathroom Product Are You?

You Are Blue

You are a philosophical and often inspired person. You are the master of ideas. You are open to many points of view. You believe that it's important to communicate and not judge. You have a worldly perspective, and you're always looking to broaden it. You are a true people person, but you also value your solitude and personal space.

What Primary Color Are You?

You Are A Spaceship

You're so weird that you're practically out of this world. You are a total dreamer. You are obsessed with conquering the impossible. You are wild and adventurous. You love thrills of all sorts. You are a true sensation seeker. You are always looking for that next high.

What Type of Transportation Are You?

You Are Highly Intelligent

You are a perceptive, observant, and reflective person. It's easy for you to get lost in your mind. You think amazing thoughts. You are curious about the world. You are inventive and quite visionary. You can get really engrossed in things. You tend toward the obsessive side.

The Watercolor Test

You Are Highly Inspiring

You believe that your life has a higher purpose, and you do all you can to achieve it. You are wise, and a lot of your wisdom comes from self discipline. You try to live as moderately and modestly as possible. You make room for rational, small indulgences... while living as ethically as you can.

The Watercolor Test

Tags: all these things i hate, angst, anguish, anime, anti-deign syrum, book, bored, courage, cynical theories, glorious, hetalia, idiocy is sickness, music "appreciation", papercrafts, quiz, rant, yaoi

To Stalk me go here: Well....In One.

Current [Ness]: listless

Current Form of Entertainment: Infinity

Greetings, brethren.
I step on this cold hard brick of a stone, but do I really desire to be on it? No, it's been tainted by a distorted mold of an original.
Do we not all gree that copy≠original, no?

Alright. You know what? I've had it up to the ozone layer in doses of POSEUR. That's right, with a "u" in it. Because not only does this moron display discontent in her actions, she displays discontent in herself which comes off as taking out her "anger" and boo boos in her constantly pointless life.
Who knows what I want?! Anybody. Come, I allow you to reply to this retorical question with anything you have. What do i want?!
Not world domination. That's for lulz and in case this hopeless universe realizes that they're eternally screwed *this is not going to happen, i assure you. If it does/'s already happened, let's party!*

I've passed the milestone where inanimate objects make the person. Shouldn't it be the person who makes the inanimate object?! There's this concept called manufacturing. I realize that it's more than two syllables, but it is required to be known by the people worthy for the editor-sama seel of approval. IF you don't....wekk maybe your parents will buy you a new brain on your next brithday. You better wish extra hard and be a good *religiously brainwashed* specimen.

When i hear that I always "get what I want", it makes me giggle. Because seriously, tis not like I haven't gotten any sort of hint. I'm not stupid or braindead. I know how people think about me and i clearly dont give a shit. I can pretty much figure someone out when I have a few minute's talk with them.
You can have as much power as you want. But in the end the material posession has made you. You have not made it. I don't think i spent all of 6th grade declaring my independence like america in 1776 just to have this happen.

Please get over it. Just because you don't get whatever the hell you want doesn't mean you can take it out on someone *who not to mention is infinity times way awesomer than you*. oh WAAAAAAAH *fake cries* OML, like no way. People don't get what they want in life?! So it wasn't natural after all?! IT was a fracking lie?! OMLLLLLLL *leshocccccck, that is like so totally shellshocked, man!* Get outta town!!! No....is that possible?~ I have never heard of this before! Treason! All hail Her Brazenly *in private* Demure Lowness Amelia Mignonette Grimaldi Thermopolis Renaldo, Crown Princess of Geno......ooooh wait! America CANNOT have royal titles accroding to the constitution, so therefore, for you to have such luck as to get whatever you desire is hence forth, BANNED.
DENIED. THE BILL IS KILLED.
We find this completely and all out unconstitutional and just plain immature.
Could anyone else besides me not see this happening?! </sarcasminsertionhere>
Screw that.
Ah, the immaturity. Tis too easly for high school to ruin us all, dammit. Sadly, some of us will eternally be stalk the spotlight, turning it away from others until our skin wrinkles to such an extent. This is why i hate competitions
Superchic[k] song of the day: Highschool

These are the ways are so high school: If someone puts you down thats so high school, if some one talks behind your back thats so high school, and if you have to get them back that's also highschool.
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Some people never change never change after graduation.
Believing any light you shine makes their lesser, they have to PROVE to everyone that theirs is better.
These are the rules, the ways of highschool:
If someone puts you down thats so high school, believing that they're too good for you is so highschool, and if you believe it too that's also highschool. I know, I'll be graduating early! *oh my damn, you stupid counselours! these teenagers are lying to you! Don't be dense!*
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We've all got bad year book photos, which we forgot to let go, and just like acne, our insecurity should be something we left with the JV. So if you're still letting go of year bok photos, things we kept that hold us down, that was yesterday, there's always tomorrow, WE ARE TOMORROW, WE ARE TOMORROW.
*****
Stupid highschool.
*Hence the HIGHschool.*


IDL-I died laughing and OML-Oh My Loki are the only IM speech sayings that i will ever use. Understood?!
Kudos to Madeleine Long for making that up. How come i didnt think of that?! I'm almost ashamed to say that i didnt think of that first........Then again, I'm not the one that is easily sturred by many things. Besides ugly people. Inside and out.


Things I've typed to express the never ending buzzing going on to my left. Yeah.......I wasn't on a roll until after i finished this. My *semi*sincere self derisions for this bucket of EPIC failure.
*was going to be posted on youtube, but i went over the character limit, thus, it wound up here*
I know, this sucks
just like Romeo. The rose line was Juliet's. If another guys uses that pickup line, i swear i will have to go buy a chainsaw.

"Hold on this slice of life is going to be pain stakenly long:
I am not having a good April. Luckily, the month ends today. The poseur "friend" *yes, the one who [attempts] to be me, but fails at a sure fire distance* is now saying that i "always get what i want". Personally, what DOES she know about what i WANT? Hmmmmm?! She hasn't been to my house for years. She couldn't possibly know what i want *besides her to transfer out of the country* This makes my blood boil. A poor person is in a bad situation, but a greedy one is even worse.
Okay so let me explain a bit more in depth: Back in the day i was spineless and she was what i thought *but still wasn't* was a "real" friend. Then i realized one enchanted day when i discovered superchic[k] that she was just using me because i was just there. She held on to me to make her feel better about herself. So i broke away and declared independence via superchic[k] and angst. Since then i have always resented her. And now she's using a "payback" card. But really, it's not effective. It's like using normal type moves on a ghost type pokemon *that made no sense to you right now, did it?* I used to be a brat *but never spoiled* because well, i was the old me. There's quite a difference between my old self and now.
She really liked my stuff when we were little. Most of the stuff i have is never anything i really "wanted". I just okayed it and it was mine. My mentality is out of reach from hers because I don't cling or obsess over OBJECTS. That's right, i dont value my things. As much as it sounds like I'm an ingrate, I'm just not material like she is. Hell, i feel like burning all the money i have. It's evil. While it's true that [I] get what i want because i know how to get it, i never mean that in a material way. I could never WANT that much. I go by the law of NEED, not WANT. I get what i want because I never force myself to get it no matter what. I will never have a thought about having something to make myself look "cooler". I make myself better by using myself, not others and inanimate objects *though it could be debatable for many other people's brains.* I MAKE myself. Life isn't about "finding", "searching", or "seeking" for yourself. It's actually supposed to have you CREATE yourself. I'm not selling myself out as a stencil rental for 5 cents. I'm not that cheap. Economically preservant, but never cheap. All those things i have are NEEDED for me to be me. But all the things she WANTS are things to lose herself even more, if she was ever there in the first place. She honestly can't see that she's the one who caused herself jealousy. Well sorry, hon, she really needs to get over herself. She's blind by herself. Perhpas i should donate a pair of my glasses to her.

Ugh. Rant. So long since i've had one this long. It's not even that long. Sorry for clogging your page..... not that i regret any of this. I'm just saying "sorry" so people excuse the big patch of rant."

That made me look like a sad excuse. I'll do better next time, i swear. @#$%^&
I'm running out of icon slots!!! NOOOOOO

Shakespeare. I read one of his plays. It was crap. Somehow i imgained love was more than "Hey, ur pretty, let's get married and die." He has a few lines that are geniunely good, but besides that, I don't comprehend why it's so great. Sure it's good, if you like tradgic romances that happen to be tradgic only because of coincidence *which don't exist because of hitsuzen!!!!!*.

You Are a Burrito

You're not a picky person. You're able to go with the flow and really enjoy life. You have a taste for the exotic, and you're quite adventurous. You're willing to try almost anything. You're very low maintenance. You don't mind getting a bit messy if it means having fun. You aren't superficial or easily impressed. Someone has to be the real deal if they're going to impress you.

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Thought

You believe a mind is a terrible thing to waste, and you try to exercise your brain as much as possible. You are intrigued by almost everything, and you are curious about the world around you. You want to travel to foreign lands, read lots of books, and master many subjects. You love to go on all sorts of adventures, especially the kind that don't require you to leave your room.

You Believe that Love is Devotion

When you think of love, you think of committing to one person for the rest of your life. In love, you see things as they are. You accept and love your partner's faults. If you are in love, you want the whole world to know it. You don't hold back with letting people know. You are patient in love. You are willing to wait for the right person and the right time.

You Are a Strawberry Smoothie

You are a well rounded, complex person. You have many sides to you. You are quite sweet, but you are not fake or sugary. You keep it real. People appreciate your fresh and honest approach to life. You call things as you see them. You are comfortable with who you are. You know you're well loved, and you love yourself.

You Are a Blueberry Smoothie

You are original and expressive. You have a strong, vibrant personality. You tend to be attracted to the unconventional and obscure things in life. You have strong opinions and preferences, even if they do tend to change a lot. You are not particularly artistic, but you have an artist's temperament.

You Are Vitamin D

You're a naturally strong person. You've always had a lot of endurance. You can survive what would make most people crumble. You have both mental and physical strength. You don't do a lot to stay healthy - you just live a pretty natural lifestyle. You stay away from processed junk, sleep like a baby, and get plenty of sunshine!

Ah, sweet victory....it's in my clutches.
I win. and you will lose to my glorious Will. This is how you win, without trying or being connected to the situation directly.
You just can't stop me. Muahahahaha.
Oh Prussia, he never ceases to amaze me. There was a fanmix posted on hetalia yesterday, so naturally i downloaded because Prussia is made of awesome and hopefuly though hours of listening to it, I shall become even more awesome than I already am.
My favorite was Don't Mess With Me by Temposhark. In a way, it fits my ruthless side *rarely shown to the public...because what they don't know WILL be their downfall* Because of hetalia, I knocked about 5 gigs off my harddrive. Gotta love it.
This just proves, that I always win, in some way or another. Mess with me and you're as good as dead. *is it meor does that song have cello in it?*
My grandparents are at my house. I really want to rub my grandpa's head. It's really smooth and irresistably shiny. I'd rather hang out with old people than most of the fracktards in my age group. I've got time to kill. I'm done "finding" myself because I know that I'm with myself. It's not about finding yourself in life, it's about crafting yourself. I realize that it'll never seem like I'll be done with "finding" myself. Alas, that's not exactly what I'm doing. I've found myself, but i wont ever let go of my sense of being. Besides, that was and always will be the whole point, dammit. I SHALL NEVER LET GO of this journal!
Normally, I'd make my paragraphs longer. Yes, i really have gotten rotten at doing this. I shall get to rereading my old entries.
I'm going to azula-nee's house.
*will edit entry later*
Quiz tiems
*copy and pasted from kerriri, but never completed from my own info*
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old
[] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I've lost a *n inner* child. *NOOOOO, like i'd ever have a real kid, but I lost my inner child. My childhood was robbed!*

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[] I failed more than 1 class last year
[] I've stolen something from my job
[] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[] I've had chicken pox.
[] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan. *airport*
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing. *not enjoyable
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. *very disgusting*
[] I've been snowboarding


Relationships
[x] I'm single
[] I'm in a relationship
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex, even a worshipful one.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone dying.
[] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.


Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. *its healthy*
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name. *no, but i would if i felt like it
[x] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[] I bake well.

[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue, dark red *what does this have to do with anything?*
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[] I bite my nails
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[] All of those are answered honestly. *except for this one! muahahaa*

After some thought *and shameless procrastination* I've found a song that beats the tar out of the so called "graduation" theme song "our" school committee forced us to choose from a list of lame and meaningless songs found in mainstream radio. I never listen to radio. How can any of those represent all of us?! THIS IS AMERICA. And before i go on bashing how the majority treats the almost invisible and courage drained minorities, I'm saying that the majority does not makeup america. What everyone has went through during the ENTIRE history of america makes america. That's right. Every single second. What everyone HERE has had happened to them. The things we cannot deny. Not what some random white guy says. What WE all don't say because there's far too much for us to say. We'll need a gallon of water to help us get through a rant that lists all the fights that WE have had to get this far.
There is no "us" and "them". Whoever thinks so needs to GET OVER IT. PERIOD.
Don't thouch America till you know what's fracking inside it.
I can't believe I'm actually defending America.....for once. the thing is I finally realized that it isn't america's fault that the people in it are screwed. It's the screwed's fault. Not my problem. They're just sullying the way that American is "supposed" to be. But somehow through a series of warped visions something went wrong.......

I was watching a fanvid of USA and I have to say that THIS is what it's really supposed to be. Before I was just "meh, america" but now I'm just ticked off at the idiots who think they can make US look bad. *I hope i can still do HTML from my neopets days.*

THAT should be the graduation song.
Because saying "here I am" is better than whatever the hell david cook, or whatshisface can come up with. *not that I've heard of his song before. I'm just saying that I don't want anything to do with the SCHOOL'S decision. I'm gonna throw my own graduation thing with the MUSIC [i] want.
Graduation isn't the end. It's just the whole fracking beginning, yo. And only the strong make it out alive. I used to automatically count as that, but now I'm FIGHTING. Fighting all these obstacles in my way because I DONT GIVE A DAMN WHAT THEY SAY, YOU'RE JUST LUCKY I DON'T GO INTO MONOLOGUES IN FRONT OF ALL THESE CHILDREN. I'm sure they'd all cry if i did......that'd be hillarious.
Yes, Alice the anomalous likes to laugh at crying children. It helps me sleep at night.
There is not ONE song that describes middle school. None that are in someone else's itunes program that is. Mine fit just fine.
I'll post the songs that I think are worthy enough. Not any of that popular trash *still, some offense, but less than 50% of it. I never listen to radio or anything main stream. I go my own way and find my own music my own way.* What in the world? Just because we consent to a nasty song because it was better than the other 3 doesn't mean we like it at all. It just means that it was better than the others.

Does anyone else think that Spirit the Stallion of the Cimmeron's soundtrack is PWNAGE?! The music fits all essence of ME! *and alfredm, of course* I mean listen to it! The movie itself is made of awesome! *I bet Gilbo had something to do with that*. I personally like the early 2000's animation better than now's. Present animation looks cool and all, but it doesn't have the same....what do you call it?..."heart" to it. It doesn't look like the pencil brought the same amount of effort as the computers did. I want to see the faces constantly move, not just the mouths.
DON'T BE SO DAMN LAZY, 2009!

Thrid quarter ended some days ago. Not the greatest time of my life, but I'll make up the failure with the EPIC WIN i bring naturally. I still have my Tophgod worshippers.
Worst report I've ever gotten:
Mostly A+'s and As but ONE B, and TWO B+s. This is a disgrace. Not that anyone *including my parents* gives a damn. I don't even give a damn. Grades are worth shit. That just shows you what you wrote on pieces of paper that won't even go into the infernal pits of the recycling chain of "life". Not my fault. One B- project and suddenly the whole percentage goes whack.

TIS SPRING BREAK, FRACKTARDS. This means all the stories I'm working on are now officially off hiatus....once i get to writting those new chapters. I'm refreshing my memory of my characters. It's been a while since....anything, really.
I went on a shopping frenzy for books this month. Books that I bought months ago still lay on my table, unread. That must be fixed.
Spring Break Reading list:

Hunted *book 5 of the house of night series* by P.C. Cast and her profound editor-sama resemblent of a daughter, kirstin Cast

The Reformed Vampire Support Group by Catherine Jinks

Night Road *reread* by A.M Jenkins

The Dragon King triolgy by Stephen lawhead *one floozy of a book to read*

Fanfictions

Dormia by J. Halpern and P. Kujawinski *bought it because it said "not for sale", that is EPIC. I broke the law, muahahahaha*
I sound so OOC, I'm gonna go read old journal entries to regenerate my speech pattern and mentality.

The books I read before this entry, but didn't bother to mention until now:

Genius Squad by Catherine Jinks
*Cadel! Who IS your daddy? Pick Prosper because he's suave......... OML, i think I have a thing for his second dad........he has 4 dads, counting the one that he lived with for 14 years, the therapist, the old dead one, and his new dad who has nothing to do with him but was the biggest let down because i thought the new one would top the old one. This is worse than Sister, Sister. Father's day is gonna wipe him out.*

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies
*Took forever to read. Sure there were zombies, but still as boring as the original.*

Stardust *I cannot stand the writting style of Neil Gaiman. It's annoying. The plot was awesome though. I've survived the worst. Stardust was better than evernight by lifetimes.*

I beat pokemon platinum on the 5th and I got to burn joss money for dead people *who are related to me*. The game was way better than the original. Getting through Stark Mountain was pure agony. I almost ran out of repels...........I did better than the first time through. I didn't even catch heatran the first time. I still haven't, but at least i know i could.
Maybe having an espeon was a good idea after all.......
Kuroshitsuji's finale was pretty awesome. I know it's not like the manga, but an anime is supposed to be an adaptation of the manga. If it WERE the same as the manga, why bother watching it? Sebastian and his bitch boots <3 I don't think Ciel's soul was actually taken...maybe they were just avoiding to show us what REALLY happened *coughyaoicough* between ciel and sebas-chan.
Hetalia has still occupied my vital regions mind. It's just too awesome to resist.


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Glorious quiz results:
*still refusing to use a but on anything because this journal is personal but still here for the world to see.*

You Are a Snow Leopard

You have learned that you must rely on yourself, and yourself alone, to live a happy life. You are understand the world better than most people you know. You are very perceptive and intuitive. You need lots of space to think. If you don't get the space you need, you're likely to bite someone's head off. Because you are so thoughtful and solitary, people find you to be intense and mysterious. You're even seen as intimidating.

What Big Cat Are You?

You Are Basil

You are a mild mannered person. People feel naturally calm around you. You are warm hearted and loving. You have a close knit circle of friends and family. You have the courage to be who you are in life, even if others disagree. You're proud of your uniqueness. You are good at caring for and healing others. You are naturally soothing.

What Herb Are You?

You Are Dusk

You are a naturally idealistic and creative person. You look forward to nights where everything is possible. You spend most of your energy on play. Work is okay, but the true you emerges after the work day is done. You're an offbeat type that doesn't like rules or schedules. Life's too short to waste at a desk in a cube. Whether you spend your night socializing or working on side projects, you like that your time is yours.

Are You Dusk or Dawn?

You Are Super Stylish

You've got style, no doubt about it. You always look your best. You are on top of trends, and you carefully pick what works for you. You dress for the occasion, and you never wear anything inappropriate. You only own the best clothing and accessories. You know how to make an impression.

Are You Stylish?

I'M ALIVE!-
[Alice~Average Everyday Sane Psycho] *not so average, no?*
OH, GLORIOUS ANGST, YOU'VE COME BACK TO MEH!
By the way, I added a Prussia moodtheme, replacing the purple stars as my mood thing. Why? Because I'm spreading the 5 metre love.
GILBO HAT UNSER LIEB! *Gilbo has our love!*

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To Stalk me go here: Where the flame of life's not held down by the rocks of life

Current [Ness]: infuriated

Current Form of Entertainment: Here I Am; Brothers Under the Sun-Bryan Adams

Hetalia has been injected into my system! And there's no way to get it out! Prussia and his 5 meters........ My editor-sama would like that five meters very much. oi, it's FIVE meters. thats about 50 times as big as........ *coughhack*

Oh, yes. Hallo, all! My loyal fan(s) that is/are reading this!
I bring thee a quiz dump of epic proportions.
It's that time of the year again.......Solo Ensemble. and yet again, I'm not prepared, as always. I've been procrastinating too much. I'm not bad, I'm just lazy......
I've gotten through 8 out of 10 suzuki books. I lack all traces of genuine effort, but I got through them.
Ack, i have no idea how my old *has no other word for "old"* speech pattern was like! I don't even have a good way to say that i dont have any idea!!!
This is horrible!!!! *has no word to replace horrible with*
Dammit. School has been forcing me away from the glorious internet, my true kingdom of everlasting angst.
March is the worst time of the year for me. First of all, my sister was given life during this month. That alone should ruin the 30 days afterwards. Second, teachers enjoy piling up projects for us in March. It's like we're entertainment that PAYS THEM. and third, st partrick's day. I refuse to wear green JUST so i can avoid being pinched! I'm not irish *i have nothing against the irish though. I'm jsut saying I'm not white.* and i don't celebrate and saint days. I'm not catholic or religious. DEAL WITH IT, you shrews.
I am sick of the invisible prejudice *needs to stop using this specific word* against people who aren't "believers"! What is up with that!? I mean maybe "god" *chyaaa, right* created "atheists" * i dont like having my opinions being labeled with ONE word, dammit.* so "believers" could learn how to be tolerant of all people. Freedom of religion for all my 5 meter gilbert foot. More like freedom of religion for yourselves.
ONE MORE THING. I don't capitalize "god". We only capitalize nouns in german and other languages. Are you going to egg me just because i have "bad" spelling?! I don't egg those brats of a bunch of classmates' houses because their spelling is agonizingly made of SHIT even though ENGLISH, the language that is their first is their FIRST and mine isn't. We don't need free eggs either. I find "charity cases" like that repulsive because I obviously won't take that "charity".

You Should Light a Coconut Candle

You are simple yet exotic. You are colorful, bold, and wild... but you're not picky or fussy. In your group of friends, you are the fascinating one. You always have an amazing story to tell. You're the type of person that no one ever forgets. You make a lasting impression. You yearn to travel more and are always dreaming of your next adventure. You love expanding your horizons.

I detest the scent, but i like the description. I APPROVE *thumbs up*.
Next.

You Are Dare

You are outrageous, adventurous, and wild. You live to have fun. You are all about taking risks and pushing limits. You love the rush of doing something forbidden. Like most daring people, you are highly intelligent and creative. That's why you get bored so easily. You need a lot of stimulation and novelty in your life. You aren't satisfied with the mundane.

So you're saying that there are only two types of people in this world, aren't you? How stereotypical.

You Are a Carrot Cake Cupcake

You are a complex person. You have many interesting layers to your personality, though others might not know it. You are drawn to a cross section of people. You friends play different roles in your life. You are like a cupcake because you are are deceptively simple. There's actually a lot to you! There are many ingredients in your life, and you only want them in proper amounts. Being you is a delicate art.

Amen, amen. Eat that, morons. Just because all of you are only one layered cakes, doesn't mean that I am. In truth, I might have more calories, but I'm healthy(er).

You Are the Communicator

You are a collector and facilitator of knowledge. You love storytelling and teaching. You light up when you're around other people, and you especially light up in front of a crowd. You are a charismatic person who's genuinely a joy to be with. You remind others to have fun. You love life, and you're wake up grateful for every new day. This attitude makes the people around you love life as well.

You Are the Crown Chakra

You are truly enlightened. You are humble, unselfish, and without prejudices. You are a humanitarian. You value justice, and you're doing your best to make the world a better place. You are an ethical person. You strive to do the right thing and be good to people. You are able to put your faith and trust in others. You have a lot of faith in humanity.

You Are a Creek

You are a dynamic, energetic person. You tend to change quickly and often. You are spirited and gleeful. You believe it's important to live a colorful life. You are also quite brave. You are able to look past your fears. You have what it takes to be very heroic. If the opportunity arises, you can use your strength.

Your Animal is the Stag

You are a proud, independent person. You take care of yourself and are very attractive. You keep a bit of a distance from the world, but you still understand it well. You are both spiritual and intuitive. You are sensitive to all of the creatures around you. You enjoy travel, especially when it involves a long journey. You especially love traveling outdoors.

Your Animal is the Goose

You are are a resourceful person who needs a lot of stability in life. You rather save for a rainy day, even if it means on missing out on fun impulses. When you feel secure, you are incredibly creative and artistic. You are also very witty. You like to invest in yourself and for the future. You like to always be learning and gaining skills.

You Are Combat Boots

You are a complete and total rebel. You refuse to do what you're told, and you're quite stubborn. You really don't care what other people think of you. You are tough and often ruthless. You are independent, iconoclastic, and countercultural. You resent authority figures. You are very headstrong. No one is going to pressure you into being someone you're not!

You Are The Liver

You are a very versatile, adept person. You are able to do many jobs. You seek balance at all times. You are good at adjusting yourself to keep things level. You are able to counteract bad influences. You can neutralize anything toxic. You are resilient like no one else. You can rebuild yourself completely if you need to.

You Are a Papaya

You are a calm, balanced, and mild mannered person. While you're peaceful and together, you're also quite complex. You are authentic and honest. There are some very distinct elements to your personality. You are exotic and original, but you don't flaunt it. You allow others to discover your subtle complexities.

You Are Pause

Compared to most people, you are reflective and thoughtful. You're always willing to take a break and digest everything that's happened. You are patient with life. You are happy to sit back and let things unfold. You're not in a hurry. You're content to take things at someone else's pace.

Meh, i just stopped commenting when i realized that I didn't feel like it. Time to go mock an annoying man voice out there. I might actually look forward to orchestra class.....slightly. I won't have to listen to her short bows and dribble. My right ear is saved *but what about my left?!*
I've been at 32% lately.....that's a very low percentage for those of you who're failing math class. I don't give a damn about what people think right now, but so far I've been giving them what they want. Like a sandwich on a plate. Oh well....might as well poison that sandwich, no? hehehehehehe. For a few days i was actually .....dare i say....CARING about what people said. Geez, they have no idea what they're saying. Their vocabulary is so limited, i dont even know what they're saying anymore. It all sounds blah blah blah to me anyway. I stole some icons from the hetalia community, but i ran out of room...... Like i'd pay for anything....i mean my livejournal just to have more icons......

Tis official. Most *if not all* russians hate me. I don't know why. Well anyway I feel anti-guilt because there's no need to forgive because I never felt guilt in the beginning. It's not like I'm spiting them on purpose. I don't give a damn if anyone forgives me or not, because I'm no sorry for whatever the hell i did*n't do*. I'm not trying to think of the peope as a whole, but almost every person with russian ancestry my age always ends up hating my guts, minus the people I'm not generalizing. GAAAAAAAAH. Their personalities are so contradicting of themselves!!!!! I'm not racist against russians! It's just SPECIFIC people who HAPPEN to be russian with BAD personalities I don't like.
People of the sullied world, GET A SENSE OF HUMOR. I can't stand people who can't take a joke. And no, if i happen not to like your joke, it probably isn't funny.....or i just don't like you. Either of them make illogical reason, but since when was this war-bound world ever LOGICAL?! There is no FRACKING ROOM in this planet for logic!!!!!! What is "logic" anyway?! Screw that.
I HATE pinheads who don't get the humor.......
HETALIA pwns <3 Simple as that. If you haven't read or watched hetalia, you have no life. How else do you think I ace history class? By studying?! *hahahahaha* NO. I watch hetalia and thus i learn world history *inaccurately at times, but at least tis better than textbooks* PASTA~~~~~~

I got my *hundred dollar* calculator stolen. the fracktard that took it better give it back and LEAVE ALL MY DAMN PENCILS ALONE. I am deeply bonded with my Happy Hannukah pencil. I'm not jewish, but that pencil just looks plain wicked. So shiny and holographic..... I was planning on installing cameras outsite the health room or have some moron miss class *it's not like they need it. 1) It's health, fun with the teacher because she's awesoe, but most of it's common sense, 2) I have morons in my class. Their parents are paying to get them all the way to 12th grade, no questions asked. HOW DARE SOMEONE STEAL FROM ME?!?!?!?!?!! The day you mess with me is the day you dig your own mashed potato pit of a grave. You do NOT ever take from me. EVER. *iron fist*
Memoirs of a Geisha........great movie right? NOT. I tried my best to like it, i honestly did. But I just can't stand any character being a wuss and getting themselves raped......I completely hate america now......*semi true* this gives me a bad image of americans......or maybe just the average joe. I have everything against the AVERAGE JOE. I have this paino teached, his namer is Joe too. But he's anything but average. He's excused from this rant. ITS SO ANNOYING THAT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT "ORIENT" MEANS. What is that? It reminds me of an oreo. It better taste good. Sayuri=Cho-Cho-san. Woman with no power. NOW IS THAT WHAT WE WANNA SEE. And where in the world did her BLUE EYES come from? Personally, that was the only part i liked, the blue eyes, but they were changing between blue and brown through the movie. *wasn't paying attention*
Sayuri's like Cho Cho-san Jr.! I mean if Cho Cho-san had a daughter, she'd be sayuri! There was some improvement, but all too minor in my opinion. Where are the smart asian women these days? Oh wait...I'm an endangered species.........
I realized that I haven't been writting down personal events lately. I can't even remember what I had for breakfast anymore.
I'm watching Kateikyo hitman reborn! Well now that I actually know what it is now, I can use "KHR". Tsuna finally grows some balls after ep 26. FINALLY. His gloves are EPIC. There's also HIBARI and hibird! Hehehehehe, the school song is his ringtone....... My school barely even uses our song......do we even have one anymore?
I'm waiting till the weekends to start doing work on my prejudice paper. In daily speech, I'd never use "prejudice" ever. It's not one of those words that come naturally to me.
I put my writting mind on pause for a few months. It sucks. What a repulsive idea. I can't believe i actually made it through.

*inserts the long awaited angst*
Coming from me, this will not sound weird because everything i say always has a reason to be said. Why else would i say this anyway?! *besdies to make my ego bigger* Sometimes i really wish i had someone that was always by my side. The people that are by my side....well they still might need some explanation for the way i am. That's fine, I've always dwelled on the fact on meeting ONE damned person on this earth that knows the feeling of being the last one there as well enough as I do. In short, will there be a person who'll cry if I died right now? Bleh, this isn't clear enough to explain right now....I'm too rusty, dammit!

P.S. I'm NOT DYING! I'm TOPHGOD! Soceity and their cheat smut attacks will never bring me down! HAZAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!
To get a better fracking idea of what I'm speaking of, I've devised a plot to use one of my newest fandoms to explain my angst to you!:



To see the subtitles better: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw8bbkWUOw0

"If it means that [he] will be happy...I'll....."
"But.....to be happy without you.......has no meaning"

Man, I really wish the world was like Hetalia....with italians running around and yelling "PASTA" at us.......
If you look through my faves on youtube, you can find all the vids I found with this glorious art and *sniff from cold* the heartstring wrenching songs. PrussiaxGermany and N.ItalyxGermany ftw! I love them both...and they're both hot!

Quizes that you don't really wanna see afte the tearfest you surely had right now:

You Would Be a Crafty Superhero

You are naturally curious and even a bit of a snoop. You like to have dirt on everyone - both enemies and friends. You get bored easily and need excitement in your life. You like having problems to solve. You understand people quite well and often know what others are thinking. Because of this, you can get people to do what you want. You tend to feel apart from the rest of the world. You don't really fit in, and you don't try to! You are a true philosopher. You are thirsty for wisdom. You are trying to figure out the meaning of life.

You Are ONE WAY

When you're confronted with a problem, you know exactly how you want to handle it. You are decisive and act quickly. Once you get the ball rolling, you don't change course. You can be a bit stubborn at times, but you have reason to be. You're often right. You are unwavering and brave. You do what needs to be done, even if it isn't popular.

-Alice, PSYCHIC.
*Has parents that let her watch pron because "it teaches you to be a 'better' person"*

Merry meet, yet again, my brethren!

I have too many projects to do at school, dammit! In language class they're having us do a research project about prejudice. Research? Prejudice? I've done it for 14 years of my life already. *ack, I feel old!!!!!* If I must write this all down in a short 5 paragraphs in essay format, then be it. The 8th grade only gives me one fracking chance to excel and they hold me back the other weeks of the year. I've put on kid gloves for the entire year so far. Morons who don't get the joke in the phrase "alienate unalienable rights" during social studies while ENGLISH is their first damn language. And me, who used that phrase while my second language is english and mastered to a higher extent than theirs. Where has american gone wrong with all of this?
Then in german class the idiots who HAVE SIGNED UP to take a foreign language *more like have it learned for them. The teacher already knows german, so it's pretty useless to do nothing while she babbles on about the difference between the direct object and the subject if no one is listening besides me, though I've learned the difference the during one of the previous 5 times she reminded us about it* say that the whole world would speak english. Well sorry, kids, England couldn't conquer every country in the world and kill all the non "anglo saxons" for you. They just decided to just do one continent. *I won't hold that against UK from Hetalia though.....*
Let's say a bunch of kids in france were saying the same thing, that french was easy, so everyone in the world should speak french or *insert other language here*. How'd you like that?! I cannot speak a word of french besides "neuf" *the number nine in french* and bon voyage. If i had the time I'd like to learn as many languages i can.
Fracking morons, don't sign up for a foreign language if you can't stop denying that you've been ruined by an blindly formed preconception that the whole world should speak english because it's your first language. It's not even perfect if it is your first language. There's this thing called vocabulary. Get some. The dictionary lets you plagerize from it and you can use those words in daily speech! *leshock*.
I can't get over how horrible the vocabulary quality these brattards possess. Disgraceful.
How many times have I mentioned that I'm not in the "hard" reading classes? Come on, the literature classes now give me headaches and bore me even closer to death than they already did years before, not counting 7th grade. I know how to relate to characters if they're any good. And the only reason I can't seem to put any genuine effort into reading books during school is because i think more than half of the books written for teens is purposely written to gain profit because *stupid* teenagers waste their parents' money on garbage like Evernight *a book by Caludia Gray that is a not so cheap immitation of Twilight's marketing success*. It sounded like a dense but somehow can pass off as "intelligent" 13 year old girl who's hormones have just been activated. I, being 13 at the time i bought the book took serious offense. Does the author think that I'm an idiot?! I couldn't read any more of the dribble until i decided to force myself into reading the rest of that THING.
I refuse to answer pointless questions that you can figure out with this thing called common sense. Some guy apparently thought being intelligent was common at the time.
Arrognace and ignorance in the same person?! NOOOO, is that possible?! Yes. It is. For a couple of weeks I actually considered giving a damn about other people's opinions of me. Then I figured it out.....SCREW YOU. But i appaluad you for attempting to make a correct and accurate opinion of me. If only you were good at it.
HETALIA!!! My new fandom! Too bad the eps are only 5 minutes long. Come on, I wanna see some ItalyXGermany action!
Chibitalia is so cute....and so is HRE.

You Are Orange Juice

You are an energetic, driven, motivated person. You are always eager to get started, and you face each day with optimism. You are bright and hopeful. You tend to see what's right as opposed to what's wrong. You are generous and caring. You're always happy to give someone else a little energy boost!

I'm assertive. Not peppy. Get it right.

You Would Win Best Director

You are a mastermind with a great plan. You can visualize what you want in life. You are good at leading people and helping them do what you want. You are an excellent coach and teacher. You are a hard worker, and you're willing to see a project to completion - no matter how difficult it gets. You have the both capacity and drive to be an amazing director. Most importantly, you have the vision that's needed.

I'm sick.
No, seriously. I started to feel like a bag of warts in the middle of german class, I was still able to be a genius without listening. I just didn't feel like showing exceptional effort today....or any other day.
I haven't drawn, written, or done anything productive in what seems like years. That's IT! Screw school. I'm staying home.
Then again....I'd miss that quiz in social studies and then I'll have to retake it....
One of my friends got a livejournal! Hazaaaaah. I just hope she doesn't drag some dead weight with her. Especially the kind that I can poke and call "poseur".
Hoobastank's new CD came out in January, I wasn't a good enough fan to realize until now. It definitely gave me a 2008-09 vibe. I really need a new set of icons. My icons look lame......*the combination does, they rock separately*

I'm planning on killing off my main character's mother. I don't know whether to go through with it or not. I mean, all the characers have a family complex already, so why not?! Bring on the angst! The angst will obviously bring the father to his knees! *his hot and very strong knees!*
I've been thinking *something that you might not know possible* that I need to switch my POV right now. Time to think in Charlotte mode! Let's aim our unadulterated anger at the world and society. Let's not have to change for love! Let's not have to turn into moronic floozies to get love! Let's be what we are because that's all we can be! Let's tear down some concrete and replace it with dirt! That's right, red and RICH dirt that'll let us see what's really beyond the clouds of blinding dust!
My class was trying to list all the cliques at the school. The teacher refrained from using the word clique, so that's pretty much why no one had a complete list.

Has anyone realized how fracking awesome Yuki Kajiura's compositions are? It makes me want to Pwn at violin and cello. Viola is....too viola for me.

I'm too tired to finish this....I'll do it later




Posting this to see if any stalkers are present. I know where you live!!!! *points*
*drops down from fatigue*

Your Energy Level is High

You are a very enthusiastic, productive person. You have no trouble getting anything done. Beyond having a lot of energy, it's likely that your energy level tends to be quite steady. Unlike people with very high energy, you don't tend to be impulsive. By keeping your energy in check, you are able to use it as productively as possible.

You Are Lukewarm

You feel open and generous sometimes, but you don't always feel like being friendly. You're not naturally outgoing or curious about people. Being around others drains your resources. So considering how you feel, you're actually quite warm. You do your best. And you often find it easy to be warm toward the people you like the most.

@ My beloved editor-sama:
JASPER IS STILL MINE! MIIINE, hahaha.
I was looking through some old IMs and I realized the conflict was NEVER resolved. You still get kyo's master with long hair.
But then again whitty is better in all categories., hehehehe. I have some sadistic things in mind

You Are Tea

You are mellow and reflective. You don't allow yourself to feel in a rush and frenzied. You're likely to appreciated the ideas or connections that come up over a warm cup of tea. While you do enjoy the energy of a caffeine boost, you love that it allows you to take a break. You're not in a rush to do anything. You're content with your life, and in no rush to change it.

You know what? I hate tea. Not only is that description half of me, I truly despise the taste of most tea. I could never grasp onto why people love tea so much. I think most of it comes from it's calming reputation, not from the real calming feeling it gives off itself. The first guy that tasted tea must have loved it and spread his "knowledge" *cough opinion* to the world!
Doesn't matter if you love it or hate it, take it with your own opinion instead of what others say. To me, it's just whacked out.

Your Valentine's Day Personality is Cynical

You really, truly hate Valentine's Day. It's your least favorite day of the year. You think Valentine's Day fake, tacky, over the top, and meant to make single people feel bad. You realize that Valentine's Day is a holiday that only benefits companies... not couples. You know that real love is not about teddy bears and roses, and you feel like the holiday cheapens emotions.

Love isn't material, 'nuff said. Some guy who had this dream of everyone being with the one they loved died on this day and now hallmark is reaping off his legacy.

You Are FAIL

You love the internet, but it sometimes gets on your nerves. How can so much of humanity be so stupid? Wait, you don't even want to know. While there are some good aspects to being online, you can't help but notice there's so much fail. You liked the internet so much more in the good old days... before all the idiots found out about it!

Amen, amen........

And not running?! Because running is not lady-like!
I stole this from Katessa from devianrtart. Cross posting this on both.
Yo! I found

Cinderella:
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[ ] You love to dress up
[ ] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming *I dunno if "prince charming" is how to put it. I'm not looking for a classical prince nor someone with that authentic gentleman charm. If he can fake it and still able to remain
[ ] Your mom is really strict *no, but she decides more of my life than she should*
[x] You have sister(s) who seem kind of jealous of you
[ ] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes *who are you speaking to again?!*
[x] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
[ ] You have blonde hair
TOTAL: 3
*thank Loki...*

Belle:
[ ] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[ ] You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[x] You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind *because i have one*
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird (Only ONE? Try them all!)
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need *only if i like them*
[ ] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out *it wa a dare anyway.....*
TOTAL: 7

Jasmine:
[x] Your dad is very rich/important
[x] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you *well everyone is different from me, so it's a default.*
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else *dom*
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich *but it would help....*
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[x] You don’t have a lot of friends *you think? wow that's rare...welcome aboard!!!!*
[x] You’re independent
[x] You are wealthy
[x]Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL: 10

Ariel:
[x] Your parents expect a lot from you
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you *tch, i simply dont know what a "rule" is*
[ ] You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[x] You’re the youngest in your family or in the last 2
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[x] You collect something
[x] You have/had long, hair
[x] You have/had a pet fish
[x] You’re extremely curious *not about stupid things though*
[ ] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible
TOTAL: 6

Snow White:
[x] You know that you’re beautiful
[x] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You’ve almost been killed *by stupidity*
[x] You have at least seven good friends *I'll get back to you on that.....do you mean in real life or online? Cause if you put those together you have a lot!*
[ ] You’ve had food poisoning
[ ] You have/had short hair
[x] You get along with almost everyone *if i fake it and actually try*
[x] All of your friends are different *most of the time. we all have the same orgains inside*
[ ] You love to have a good time *what is "love" and "Good"?*
[ ] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in
TOTAL: 6

Mulan:
[ ] You can be a tomboy sometimes. *that word is so old. It's no like i worship the (bleeep). I act neuter sometimes, not like a guy and not like a girl*
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly *edagcoughmomcough*
[ ] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[x] You’ve had a physical fight with someone *mental is inside the brain and the brain is physical so yes!*
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[x] Your parents try to plan your life out
[ ] a lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[ ] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
TOTAL: 5

Aurora:
[ ] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[ ] You almost died at a very young age
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful *especially the last one*
[x] You have a decent singing voice *compared to the school choir.....and regular speaking voices of most of those in choir...no offense to anyone that is. I just don't sqeuak, okay?*
[ ] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[ ] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic *not in the traditional sense*
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 3

Pocahontas:
[ ] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[x] You are more spiritual than religious *dom*
[x] You’ve been in an interracial relationship *you're kidding, I'm setting this as default because I'm the only me*
[x] One of your family members is dead *they're called ancestors*
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[x] Someone you know has been in war *the world*
[x] You love nature *but i wont come in contact with it, i see the beauty fine from inside*
[x] You have/had black hair *how can you have HAD it? either you do or don't*
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful *away from this place*
[x] You’re very adventurous
TOTAL: 9

I'm a Jasmine...yay. I still end up marrying the male counterpart......


I am not a person who see's god's light, but rather a shadow, just like the rest of us. *snide reference in which no one will get*.

I am an angry asian girl at whoever says "poor you". Keep your pity~

Hallo, all!
I realize it's been well over ......well a really long time since I've produced one of my ever so infamous rants!!!! Do not despair, dear reader, for I have uncovered a treasure trove of new material! Anime, fandoms, pop culture refereneces, songs to angst to, and hopefully books with some interesting character developement.
Almost everything is new. I just have to get used to typing this fast again.....and the dreaded spelling! I have to pause everytime i don't know how to spell something..... It's like I've forgotten how to type! NEVER! It's like riding a bike....though I don't know how to ride a bike..... or swim for that matter.....
I started rereading twilight for the sheer feeling of stimulation that I've been lacking for the past few weeks. Bored, bored, bored. I've written almost nothing during winter break. I had to write a SHORT story, and we all know how impossible this is for me, for language class. I asked for an extention of length, and of course, from my "good student" exterior *which is truely not an intended facade, I just happen to be more intelligent than most without trying. Though i cannot be labled as "prep" because they seek perfection with effort. I don't seek perfection. When perfection rules society, that will be the true end of the world because once something is perfect, you can't get better at anything, you just stay the same. Time stands still. In fracking simple terms, you're like a machine. This thing called "perfection" makes you inhuman. It's insane in my eyes to go after perfection, because it's virtually unontainable anyway. Like Darkrai in my pokemon games..... something that just isn't worth the effort* and my apparent passion *what is this "passion" must be foreign.....* for writting, I got what i wanted.

What was originally a 3 page double spaced assignment, i twisted and turned it into a 22 *double spaced* page of a disgraceful attempt *yeah right, this wasn't an attempt.* of apathetic yet slightly snarky series of observations that Lacrymossa never put any feeling into. Let's just say he was hiding quite a *lot* few things from his past that he'd rather not share with a bunch of dense 8th graders that won't even get the story.
Don't worry, it was only 10 pages regular spaced. My teacher wanted me to waste paper because she had to grade it. And eventually, I'll have to read it out loud....in front of the class....
Yet another pointless decision made by the whitefish bay district forcing the students to be in a situation that we'd never want to be in. I have nothing to prove to these brats. I'm not shy, I just know for a fact that they'll automatically think it's "soooo good" because they THINK *amazing, that never happens anymore in the 21st century* they know who I am. Tch, that makes me laugh.

New anime?! You never thought I would say that phrase again, didn't you?
I went through animecrazy.net during break *alas, this is the last day of freedom and i must cherish it* and watched a series of OVAs. It was only 6 episodes long and based on a manga that was 2 volumes long. Murder Princess was something that I thought I wouldn't watch because it had the word "princess" in the title. But then again, it also had "murder"...... Such conflicting words that without open minded people in thw world, would never be put together in one sentence. *do i sound like anthony bourdane right now?! blame travel channel*
I thought Alita would have shown a little more reluctance to accept Farith as the princess. But i suppose she loved her kingdom enough to give that away. Farith was just EPIC WIN, she killed most of the monsters in one slash! The blood....... and violence.....that made me go through all 6 eps. And I have to say, Romi Paku is one hell of a seiyuu.
Speaking of characters she's played, she's also Madame Red in Kurshitusji! Ciel is too cool for words *that sounded so cheesy girl next door schoolgirl, dammit* He and Sebastian drew me in during the first episode. Does anyone else think that Ciel gives of an Arty-kun vibe? All the dark and ingenius rich boys gotta have black hair and blue eyes. Is this some motif that i never caught onto?! *okay, well, I have actually.....*
Girl!Ciel PWNs.

The Twilight movie left its mark in my head. I have to get all traces of it out of my head. I can't imagine the characters the way i did before the movie. I just have to forget about the movie and not think about it. Thats the only way i can get my image of the story back. I think I know why the people that don't like twilight think they way they do. First and foremost, the FANTARDS. They give off a bad image of many of the *sane* fans. And second, when they read the book, they already have some expectation of the book. They don't start out reading as an outside thrid person, as they would with some other book that doesnt have an infamous rep. WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD THEY EVEN THINK ABOUT THE REPUTATION?! I thought people who had opinions would at least ignore the Stephenie Meyer worshippers and just read through the whole damn book and then say "it sucked" or something because then they would confirm their opinion isntead of just saying it sucked in the beginning because they hate the fans, not the book. There's soceity for you. Yes, even people with brains have flaws that I can see through.
It ticks me off that like food, you just go with what you're most comfortable with.

Dark Horse is the dirtiest Nickleback album to date....or so I hear. Actually, I haven't been a fan of Nickleback, but their new album is pretty good, hehehe. My favorite is Just to get high. NO, it's not the kind of song that tells people to get high or something like that. It literally sends the message that getting high is a pointless way to die. I will say no more about the rest of the songs, because.....well you just have to listen to them for yourself. I'm not the kind of person that talks sex inthe dirty fashion. In the blunt fashion I would, but meh, I;d rather not.

....::::BOOK NEWS::::....

I'm writting down little tidbits for everything in my journal, but most of the info and plotlines are stored in my brain for secrecy.
I'm not for writting a million drafts to get something right. If i want something done, I'll go and do it. I love how all the stuff I've written has turned out....in the official "books" i mean. If they didn't make it in the word document, then i really put it on my list to redo them. I edit all the grammar and spelling mistakes as I go. Serisously, the most my editor has done is comment that she's only reading for entertainment. She fantards my characters, hahaha.
She got two promotions because I got bored of her being called "editor person". She was "editor-san" and then I bumped her up to editor-sama.

Blue Moon was well over 100 pages single spaced *I wonder how long that would be if it were in real book form.....* when i last left it.

Snow Lily needs some love *along with Orion*. It should be the most in depth stuff I've written. It goes to all the corners of the world *minus anarctica*, follwing Orion on this journey. Nickleback songs seem to fit him......too bad his voice isn't raspy like the lead singer......Snow Lily isn't completely serious. This is ME we're talking about. I love my characters too much to leave them into the dust, but from seeing Kuroshitsuji, some of the best stories have characters that go to the DARK SIDE, OML for reeeeeaaalz?! Yeah, for real.

Crash&Burn.....uh...I'll get back to you on that.....

Scarlett Dusk.....I was just plain RUSTY when i wrote any of this. No comment. I'm planning in on writting in the character Xavier *Mossy's runaway buddy*. He reminds me of Kazuki.....just more charismatic. His angst style is less dark. When he angsts, it's in broad daylight and it comes from pure "light". Kazuki's thoughts come from the "dark", it you get what I'm trying to say.

Tags: angst, blue moon, book, bored, ciel, crash&burn, cynical theories, dark horse, fandom, fantard responsibly, kuroshitsuji, rant, refusing to go back in time, reread, scarlett dusk, snow lily, why is it so damn hard to change?!, witty banters

To Stalk me go here: Trying to fix me typing habits into the glorious legend

Current [Ness]: indifferent

Current Form of Entertainment: Monochrome Kiss

I can't really say "Merry Christmas" for everyone. The majority of people I know celebrate chirstmas because.....well they're used to it! I for one am not one of those people. Sure I will get into Christmas for the festivity *and presents!* but I was never expected to celebrate Christmas as my own. Not that there's anything wrong with Christmas, it's great! What other holiday can you drink eggnog until you drop?! It's been awhile, dammit! I miss typing rapidly without stoppping and ranting without thinking! I've been *trying* to write a short story for my langauge class.
I'm not fit to write anything for school this year. It seems like there's no depper purpose than preparing for the big asylum a block over.
I finally, after months of dreading the book, I finished Evernight by Claudia Gray. I still think that it's the worst book I've ever read. Your opinion might differ because you might like shy girls without backbone and defend themselves at the wrong time. The only time they ever stand up to the fracktards in their daily lives, they do it ALL WRONG! At my own personal jail *which is not PERSONAL as i ust said because it's public and filled with many people who acutally DO have problems.* we've been swamped with homework for the past three weeks. Projects, papers, etc and I have had NO time to myself. This is why I am so rusty, thus i go here to .....see!!! I can't even complete a simple sentence!
I NEED my EVIL!!!!!!! MY friend, bryan says that i was never mean, jsut evil. Morons often confuse this with "mean".
Which brings me to.......
ME AGAIN, coming to say that the word "mean" is only a four lettered word. If you're going to insult me, then use a better word than that. We're all big kids now, i think you know how to use this thing called a dictionary or a thesaurus. Ack, there's always dictionary.com for crying out loud!
"Mean" is insulting your opponent's wit. Thogh, if you're using it that way on purpose, then kudos to you for suceeding in finding an original way. Too bad, i thought of it first. Never use it. IT makes bad cable television.
To show off and feel egoistic about myself I have done a very special quiz for all you X-Mas people:

[b]You Can Say "Merry Christmas" in 15 Languages[/b]

[img]http://www.blogthingsimages.com/howmanylanguagescanyousaymerrychristmasinquiz/christmas.jpg[/img]

You can say "Merry Christmas" in:

English
Spanish
Japanese
French
Arabic
German
Italian
Swedish
Portuguese
Greek
Gaelic
Hawaiian
Korean
Latin
Esperanto

[url=http://www.blogthings.com/howmanylanguagescanyousaymerrychristmasinquiz/]How Many Languages Can You Say "Merry Christmas" In?[/url]

And then I said, let there be angst and a prodigious amount of fracking epic writting! I don't care if writting is spelled with one t. Screw that. I got a 97 on my science exam. Pure failure, if you think I'm crazy, that's only because you have LOW STANDARDS!

You Find Some Parts of Your Family Frightening

You feel a bit overwhelmed by and resentful of your family right now. This is a good moment for you to take some time away from them. You feel like your family is prone to too many arguments and instability. You never feel like things can be completely peaceful. You believe that one of your relatives is truly evil. You wish to be protected from this person at all costs. You have trouble keeping up with your family member's birthdays and anniversaries. You are often late with your gifts.

I finally found out why I like Clam Chowder........

You Are Clam Chowder

You are cynical and a bit provincial. You don't trust what's new or trendy. You are also indulgent and hedonistic. You like rich foods, and you would never count calories. You are not a big cooker - or a big foodie. Food is not complicated for you. You eat what's comfortable. And what's from a box or can. You're very low maintenance.

Alright, it's about time i did something about me not ranting everyday. I have to start changing the things I can change. And if this involves loosing 100 eyesight points, then I'll do it, dammit! How many times have i said i was rusty?! BAD EXCUSE. There's no excuse for not doing my job! and my job is to rant!!!!!! I don't care if no one will stay by my side while i do this. No light will shed on me unless if i make it. I refuse to be like a broken toy you just sold off in a garage sale.
I saw the Twilight movie on Saturday. It was half way decent to say the least. I knew i wouldn't like it when i saw the trailer and let alone the cast list. NOT SO EPIC. The introduction to Jasper was hillarious, probably the best one liner in the movie besides Reneé's "be safe" which was supposed to be said by Edward, but it was funnier when she said it. The context was also completely different. The blonde over there is Jasper, the one that looks like he's in pain. hahahahaha. His eyes were popping out like daisies. My friend and I now haver a joke about that. whenever we need a good laugh, we'll think of Jackson Rathebone as Jasper. Kristin Stewart as Bella was........painful for me to watch. Not ocne did she look down on her classmates. Occassionally I would say this is bad thing, if your classmate happens to me, then you are DEAD wrong and immediately denied. Teenagers ARE realy that annoying in real life. I blame all the hormones running around in the air. Her head was always trembling like she was a schizophrenic. She was always so stern and serious I couldn't stand it! Edward just acted kinda dorky.....I didn't understand how the two of them fell in "love" in the movie. They took out too many moments.
STEPHENIE MEYER put herself in her movie. She would do that.......*cough*

My editor person finally finished editing chapter 3 of Snow Lily so i can get around to actually write something before 2008 ends. I can finally get Orion out of the eastern hemisphere! But there was a serious problem with chapter 3.........................there were too many red marks!!!!! This is unacceptable!!!
I've started to pick up Bleach, I'm gonna start watching the episodes again because apparently there was this really nice Ichihime moment *which i dont ship. As far as I'm concerned, there is no shipping in the Bleach universe.* I call Gin and Hitsugaya ....they are just too wicked awesome to describe and I'm no just saying that because i dont have words to describe them with.
It's the puppeteer's birthday today. I won't say whom that is *look the accusative case!* I'm good enough to remember my arch rival's birthday!!! See how merciful i am!? My sense of humor has been kind of tainted lately. Mostly because of my friend who is hillarious. It isn't my style at all.
I was randomly going through the shelves of Barnes and Noble and I found this manwha *judging it by it's cover because the ART does matter in these sorts of things.* when i got to the sleepover i was going to, i realized that there was a character that looked like Edward Cullen!! tis called the Chronicles of the Grimm peddler. I've also been watching Hakushaku to Yousei *Earl and Fairy* Dammit, I'm getting sick of the same thing happening over and over again. IF all of the male and female characters were paried up together what kind of show is that?! *coughromance, all of the same things get old.*
I'm sorry, stupid school has drained away all of my good sentences and replaced them with eighth grade level thinking, which unfortunately is very low and boring.
I WONT GIVE IN!!! I wont ever use capslock either. I will forever use the shift key instead. It takes too much effort to JUST press the capslock key.

What is with middle school and girl boy interaction? I honestly dont give a damn. I really need to stop saying "just" in every sentence. This guy at my school comes over to sit with us for a while and wont leave. I dont care if he sits there or anything, I just want to know why. I dont like talking to strangers, and this event happens to be perplexing. this short girl in my STAR class likes him or something. I couldnt care less, but at least have the decency to say something about this. Oh my damn, i cant say anything I would normally *or close enough* say out loud because of this persons presence.
Options: kick him out, tolerate him and kick the puppeteer out instead, kick the other annoyance out in addition to that, bring a book so i dont have to listen to the pathetic teenager dribble going on, have enough heart to fracking get rid of the "friendship" i hold no value in, or take basket ball and slam it into the face of my nemesis.
She said that "I WOULD be the one to spend all my money on books instead of clothes." well DUH. I hold no value in clothes. IT's just a waste of time to make yourself look "presentable" or "cool" when you have everything you love about youself inside of you already! It would be a warm and caring day at my school when that finally happens to me. As in not gonna happen. They won't accept me until i change. And that, my dear readers, is a load of full fledged BULLSHARK!!!!! *you thought i was gonna say bull shit weren't you?* I'm not like you, i dont have to wear the "right" *left to me* type of clothes to get noticed. I dont even want to get noticed if it's anything on the outside. I only care about the genuine attention that i earned from not doing anything consciously. Damn your vanity and the roots of it. Do you even think being called "weird" is such a bad thing? It has NO bad connotation to me whatsoever! Esepcially since she's trying to be the "good parts" of me. "Trying to take the best of me" this sounds like something from Linkin Park...... my response "GO AWAY". Tch, there is nothing in this world that will ever hold me down. Not you *the puppeteer, no you, reader*, the fracking cliques *which i can relate to all of them even if they're too mindless to figure out that i have more in common with them than their best friend.
I know for sure, I am the anomalous mockingbird that wont be killed by this plagued world.
Again, there was nothing to laugh about......I really am rusty. I filled up a whole page of my entries with random junk because i was holding back *like i always do because I'm am the glorious mastermind that i am!*
The next post will be better. I promise......maybe.........

That's the kind of person I am.
This is just the summary of me. A very, very, very, very, very, very, very short one.

You Are Warrior III

You are open and fearless. You just go for it in life! You aren't afraid to fail, but you rarely do fail. You are patient. You know that the best things in life don't come easily or quickly. You are both flexible and powerful. You don't have many disadvantages.

The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are: Deeply stable When you are moved to act, you are: Giving and warm When you are inspired, you are: Spiritual and humble When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Totally in the moment Your life's purpose is: To change the world

Another "normal" day in school. Or at least close enough. We got our report cards for the first quarter, and as much as i DONT try, i still get only As and A+s. This is bat snot crazy! How could someone as lazy as me *and i am very lazy* get a report card while preps shudder in fear from shock?! OML!!! I just remembered, I'm a genius. Phew, i thought something was going wrong for a second there. Though I know I could do better, but my abilities are limited by the rules and letter grades. Just give me a zero and get it over with! I don't wanna try! I wanna stay home and watch anime, draw, type, and write my stories which have thoroughly neglected.
My editor person has about 3 more pages until i can get started again.

Alas, the day where i finally color one of my pictures *from my math homework* is truly RAGNAROK. Not when the world blows up and when Heimdall and Loki kill each other or something. I deny their requestin dying at each other's hands. That's unsanitary. And plus I don't want Loki and Heimu to die.

If anyone *coughJasmine* is reading this, I miss my long time readers. Because I honestly dont have anything interesting to say
if i dont keep up my speech patterns and make fun of idiots. I swear, I've been to lazy to upadate this thing for real lately.
There's too much that I haven't written down in this and that's what's making me ....dare i say it .......afraid..... dammit!!!! PAUSE! That's what's making me reluctant to keep adding things. But wait!!!! I feel no guilt in doing this because it's what needs to be said, no?
JUST because i set my jacket on a table gives no specific right to anyone to knock that down or away, no? Teenagers!!! NO RESPECT for their "peers". *like they really see each other as equals* I don't give a damn if you have to put your pizza on the table. You KINDLY *what is this "kindness" of which you speak of? I now you don't understand the meaning of this complex word, just bear with me for a bit* tell me to PLEASE *again this is a very hard word to comprehend, I'm not sorry for the inconvinience* move my coat a couple of centimeters away so that it doesnt get stained.....That's right, i dont care aboutyour nasty little school lunch. It's too greasy for me to care about or acknowledge as a form of matter in this universe.

Here's a quaint little piece of *insert word here* for all of you. I might be too lazy to write anything new for awhile while my fishy and ill editor person edits the last three pages *i.e reads the last few pages for enjoyment*
The first full colored piece *colored with photoshop*
I posted this on deviantart too, but this'll save you sometime.....or if you're my stalker it might blow your computer up. I'm not getting egoistical from the sudden burst of color *what an ironic phrase to this situation*, I have to say it tured out better than i thought for my first [actual] attempt at doing something like this. Let's jsut call this a "You're better now. Now get to work or else I'll have to bring the schlagesahne out!" for my editor person. oi, she's already back on her feet the next day. She just felt like thorwing up and decided not to come to school yesterday. I was stuck with the puppeteer and the posh-plushie. Joy.

What Your Height Says About You

You are a rational, stable person. You have a strong head on your shoulders. You are a good judge of character - and you don't suffer fools gladly. You are highly motivated and a bit of a daredevil. You crave success. Limitations and rules frustrate you, but you have enough savvy to overcome them. You are about as tall as the average Korean woman.

You Are Chess

You are brilliant and shrewd. You can often predict what people will do in the future. You thrive in complex situations. You deal with contradictions well. You can have many streams of though going on at your mind at once. You keep track of things well. You are very patient. You have lots of endurance, even when your energy dwindles

What Your Height Says About You

You are a very vulnerable and spiritual person. Your emotions run deep. You have a philosophical and poetic soul. You think things through and are a bit of a skeptic. You tend to be very opinionated. You are a perfectionist with high standards. You prefer to work alone. You work hard, and you don't like interruptions. You are about as tall as the average Japanese woman.

Height DOES NOT have anything to do with how you are. Unless if people make fun of you of your height. Then you can go ahead and cause mass destruction by opening a can of "unto" on them. Do unto others as others unto you. But in this case i agree with the personality traits above.

.......I don't even know how to play chess........
Ack, the agony of losing one's words. That sounds too cliche!

Yo, people!
Standardized testing started yesterday, and this is what i do to make myself feel better......
MY friend just got banned from DA and she's making a new account as I type and I'm helping her get all her faves back. Usually I should type more than this, no? I think the stupidity is spreading to me !!!! NOOOOOOOO.
On my path back to genius, I got my history progress report back today and i got an A+ not just an 100, about 1 percent above and i still cold have put actualy effort into it. The math portion of the standardized tests was easy peasy, except this one where i knew i got the wrong answer, but didnt bother to change if because....I didnt feel like it.

I rearranged my flair board on facebook *sadly, i do have one....* and now it looks much more filled in that it used to be. I hit the fracking jack pot on sunday! I relentlessly spent over 100 dolalrs yesterday on Dvds and books for pure and fracking enjoyment.
The books I won't go into detail because you guys know how i am with books and manga...or just manga.........
Then i spotted matantei loki on dvd *yeah, i bought it despite of the adv dubbs and overpriced sticker because i felt like doing some thing with my weekend that i could brag about. Now I can watch episode 12, 13, 14, 20 and 26 over and over until i die.

There Are 0 Gaps in Your Knowledge

Where you have gaps in your knowledge: No Gaps! Where you don't have gaps in your knowledge: Philosophy Religion Economics Literature History Science Art

Hallo all! I've been playing pokemon for the past few days, and i beat my old record of 24 hour by two hours *by not training during that extra time and still beating my stupid rival and becoming the Pokemon League Champ* I think I'll start writting some chapters tonight because yesterday *halloween* was two of my characters' birthdays. Yes, i make double birthdays fort characters that have almost nothing in common with eachother because there are only 365 days in a year and about 1/8 of thenm are suitable birthdate material for me. The rest are just useless to use.

Miserable Birthday to Kazuki and Mossy
May you get drunk by being forced liquor and injure most of your friends afterward. Or at least that's what my editor person and I hope they'll do.

I've been waiting to get this out of my system for a fracking long time. A while ago on youtube some person *who i shall name because its cliche not to* commented on my Toko vid, not that i really mind people commenting on it for no reason and said blah blah blah "anything but canon" and I, being me, replied that i didnt give a damn what she thought because shipping competition doesnt matter to me, I ship what i ship. * and a whole bunch of what she thought was "rude, sharp, and acidic green" of me to say/type*
Personally I thought that if you dont have anything nice to say about something, there's no point in adding that comment, is there?
The main lesson out of this was that forgiveness isn't about the other person forgiving you, it's about you forgiving yourself, and since i didnt even feel sorry about this, that lesson was taught by a fellow superchic[k] fan, she's awesome. The second of the flaws i caught was that you shouldn't judge by outer .............actions! you thought i was gonna say appearances, didnt you!? Well that too, but this is more important than pretty or ugly. Everyone has a reason for acting the way they do and you could never comprehend why until they tell you *unless if they lie or something, knowing that you wanted to know, but that would only happen if you were talking to someone cynical enough to realize this coughlikemecough*
The third thing i noticed is that if you dont like a person for who they are, GET OVER IT and dont tell them to "change and they'll be fine" because that ticks people off. It's basicall telling them that it's not alright to be themselves, and we dont want that do we?!
These weren't the things i learned because i consciously knew them already. Man, it's really been to long since I've ranted like this. What's wrong with me?!?!!?!?!!?! Oh yeah, I'm rusty and my vocabulary is on thin ice *<----cliche line! OML!* They were the things that applied to the situation. My world isn't boring, if i let people walk over me and be stomped down by every little word made out of "acid", sheeesh, no wonder that person is lonely.......
[The purpose of this rant was to make the author of this entry feel better, obviously this did not make sense to the average reader, thus this will probably be put on private mode because I need to add more personal and more accurate measures of this event because I need to make some genius remarks about this]

You Should Be a Ghost for Halloween

According to our quiz, you'd make an ideal ghost. Your runner up costume: Pirate

What?! No depth or detail?! What a rip off! I guess that's why they gave me pirate for runner up constume. This is overbored, next quiz, now!

What Your Love of Twix Says About You

You are a generous and caring person. You are soft hearted. You're the type who needs a partner. You just don't feel right on your own. You are more fragile than outward appearances would suggest. You tend to be a pushover. You are very sensitive and easy to break.

No.......I just like my Twix. There is nothing wrong with liking twix, I'm not insecure!!! I like biting down into a medium chewy bar and enjoying the mix of flavours as i swallow it whole.

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You're the type of person who stands out in a crowd, even when you're trying to blend in. You are honest in your character and appearance. You don't pretend to be someone else. Your inner demon is sorrow. You tend to get depressed easily. People think you're cute because you're rebellious. Your uniqueness is charming.

My inner demon is actually called angst, I' don't get easily depressed, I easily make cynical theories that get around the pain and right into vengeance, which is also mine.


The way i win pokemon Firered and Leafgreen every single time. this might look like a much stronger version of Ash's team *it is*, but I didn't even notice that it was an almost an exact replica of it until.......now, while I'm typing this thing.

As more and more people read this *who am I kidding, this is a lie*, it's become harder to write down what is actually going on. I'm not afraid of letting people read this, but let me tell you that I am no tortured soul. I'm used to using this journal as writting my entire being down *or as close as possible* while entertaining you guys with witty banters and evil genius. I can't do that as much anymore because I know I'm being watched by you guys (people care about me?! OML, when did this happen?! *shock*) These entries aren't meant to be private or to hide who i am. I love showing who I am, but seriously, sometimes it scares me to know people *besides friends* are reading this thing. Only because i know *from my psychic abilities* that they will say something worth less than a can of worms. And then i have no back up!
Damn, this sounds like one of those farewell entries you can see from Zutarian fangirls who have "failed" their ship. There is no failure in doing what you think is right! *unless if it's wrong* That is a very bad demonstration of angst! HORRIBLE. UNSTABLE. INSECURE. and NEEDY. just like religion That is everything that this journal is not. This is to bring courage and truth into the world *is not preaching*. To make this a cushion for misfits, otakus, and fantards alike. None of us may be the same, that is just boring to see all of these people be the same. I refrained from saying "just like me" because there is no one "just like you". Not exactly the same. Not even clones. Everyone is different from the next. This is a window to all those morons who think they're never gonna run into any problems into their lives or to anyone who's "perfect" *LIARS!!!* and wants to play therapist for us. That ain't gonna happen. There are smart people who choose not to be like them. That's how I ended up here. It's not worth following someone else's intructions in life. I'm writtting my own "instructions" right here.
No one has to follow them. Only me.
To many, the mist won't go away with every step they take. "Perfection" is the way they imagine a peace of mind or sanctuary. It's not. It's overrated and stupid in every possible way I can think of right now. My example? Student council.
A rant of nonsense, this is weaved from.
Gaaaaaah, i have to go read through my old stuff.
Then I can use sentences that don't contain "this", "that", "anything", "thing" or other words or phrases that promote weak mindedness.
But you have to admit, this is pretty good in length, no?
Meh, I'll try next time to actually put something interesting into this length.
The whole thing reminds me of Evernight by Claudia Gray. I haven't finished it yet, but the main character Bianca is so selfish! She meets this boy and immediately thinks of the boyfriend girlfriend thing after a couple of chapters that took me 2 months to finish because it was that dreadful. Bianca sees everything so black and white. What do you get when you mix those colors? Grey. There is no grey with her. With this kind of book its always the girl + boy= "<3" The "love" is not even real because the book takes place within a few weeks or soemthing!!!
Vampires have yet to come in Evernight yet. I can't wait until that because I can't stand reading any more of Bianca's romantic fantasy and "I must fit in" dribble. If they treat you like trash, then don't try to be friends with them! And Bianca's supposed to be smart.........pshyaaaa. I guess she needs Lucas to knock some sense into her.
Insecure main characters..... A stereotype that really needs to be used sparingly.

Yep, the Zutarians finally have their canon. *though we didn't actually need it in the first place*. Check CAPSLOCKZUTARA.....that's all you need to know.
Trick or treating is tomorrow where I live. Being a libra, i had to choose between two trick or treating groups *I'm not too old for it, it's just that i dont feel like it this year*. I ended up not choosing any of them because I'm gonna go with my parents to buy a huge screen for our computer because ours can't play PPLIVE because it's too slow.
I've gotten too lazy these past two months. I read To Kill a Mockingbird and what I got out from it was :
ATTICUS PWNS
and
BOO RADLEY IS ADORABLE.
And a whole bunch of other stuff that I already consciously knew but "relearned" in a way. I learned how to immitate Jem Finch "i spy *insert item here* over yonder" Frack, I considered dressing as a ham for halloween, but I don't have the time to get ready for all this "delightful" period of gregarious merryment and hyperactive fantarding.
My [attempt] to rant isn't going so well. I couldn't even finish this sentence without stopping to think about the structure!!!!!
I feel so OOC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must get out of the habit of swearing so often. Not because it's bad to do and uncouth or some idiotic reason like that. It's not in my speech pattern to do it so loosely. I only use words like "damn" for effect. It looks like I've been using too much effect, no?

I am racist against racists. That's all I have to say. We're all one SINGLE race, homo sapiens, people, animals with warm blood that eat way too much fast food for our own good. Oh wait, that's Americans I'm thinking of. It's supposed to be more general than that.

I'm trying to finish a book called Does My Head Look big in this? By Randa Abdel-Fattah. I remembered the full name of the author by heart because i honestly like her writting. The book is about a Muslim-Palestinian-Australian girl who chooses to wear a hijab *one of those head dresses* and how life goes on from there. There's stereotypes of the teenage brats in there, so I thought "why not" and started reading it. I never knew much about the views on religion of other people and all that stuff. Women don't wear hijabs because they were forced to do it, it's a badge of their faith. They do it because they want to. Not everyone does, i realize that because it depends on the person, no? I might be wrong because I don't want to assume all these things just like how most people assume that if you're from China they can automatically ask where you're from like it's no big deal. Because it does make a big deal if you're arrogant enough to wonder about something like race that SHOULDN'T MATTER in the first place.

I was searching things on Wikipedia today and i found the seiyuu awards page, full of all my favorite seiyuus! (Sakurai Takahiro! OML!!!!! *fantards over other voice actors*) I never knew that so many of them were all that great, i thought i was the only one who noticed things like that. But NO! They have awards for all the seiyuus that make us scream like morons listen to their glorious voices without interuption *unless if it's the pause button*
What is up with me saying "it's or its" in this post? This must stop!

I ordered book marks from this person on deviantart who does a lot of Avatar fanart. I mailed the money today for the whole set of four bookmarks *i just did it because of the hot Zuko one, but I wanted a tophgod one too. TOKO!*
I'll stop for today because my eyes are bleeding out and there's this profound cheerfulness in the back of my mind that needs to go be exterminated at the moment.

What Your Jack-o-Lantern Says

You tend to be a very dramatic, flamboyant person. For you, Halloween is another chance to perform. This Halloween be something completely unusual... and shock everyone. The candy you should give out: mini chocolate bars

You Are Tuesday

Like this day of the week, you are ruled by Mars. More than anything, you are explosive. You are headstrong and courageous. You are willing to take a risk with crazy odds. You tend to be a bit impatient as well. You will push for what you want. For you, it's fitting that Tuesday is election day in the United States. You are a true catalyst for change, and you're willing to fight for what you want.

You Are 55% Hyper

You have a high amount of energy, but you're not manic about it. You live a busy, full, and productive life. You enjoy all sorts of activities, and you approach most tasks with enthusiasm. You are also naturally social. You have plenty of time and resources to devote to friends. While you are quite hyper, you do understand the importance of rest. It's difficult to get yourself to slow down, but when you do, you enjoy it.

We all know what fuels me to go on. Some good angst, a fracking good song to listen to, some sarcastic comments from TV, and a good PUMPKIN MUFFIN. the store where i *used* to get my muffins is now officially closed. I've never relied on those muffins or anything, but frack, they were very good muffins. I think I'm starting to sound like the narattor in the book Millions. British and eight and obesessed with something.

You Are 25% British

You're about as British as a half hearted Anglophile... in other words, a piss poor Brit. If you are indeed from Britain, you probably consider yourself a European more than anything else. If you're trying to pass for a Brit, you're going to have to try a little harder. Go to a football match. Drink until you puke. And head in to work the next morning totally hungover.

You Are a Pumpkin Latte

You are always up for a celebration. You are a very festive person. You look forward to every holiday, and you are nostalgic for good times after they're over. You appreciate the small things that make life special. You love little treats. You often look at the world with childlike wonder. There's so much to enjoy!